It's my birthday, and im saying this after spending my whole birthday day satisfyingly.

The day was special, not like the other birthdays i always had cos...

The party's banging tomoro baybeh!!!!!

I just came home from work and a great night out, thanks to my loves. =)

Azry my sayang asked me over to Insomnia, he was working tonight. A much needed invitation, and i came by..to see his serene face after a week..

God knows how much i missed him.. it was sweet to see him again.. =)

I had so much fun at work, tho it was the first time i got so pissed also. Heh. i was yelling at Nitin. =< style="font-style: italic;">always makes me kanchiom spider you know. So this time, that's it! i just had to tell him that im at boiling point.
Crystal and Rizal were freaked out seeing me blow my head off, they were like 'Mira, you ok? you ok or not??'..
HAHAH.

And it was better cos all my favourite people were working just now. Diy, Julie, Nira, Crystal-Rizal(note the decrease in font size.), and all kitchen staff.

They made my birthday so sweet and memoriable. Eveyone was in good spirits..Chef made me a taco pizza that sent me nauseating cos of the loaded amount of cheese.

And before the day started, i had a wild escapade with Phil who turns out to be straight after all...
And when Azry did invite me to Insomnia, i was in glee..
Right things happening at the right times, that's what i call a good day.

I am quite upset that Wany cant make it tomoro..but it's Shafiq's bday and she'll be in JB. But yeah..it's ok. I'm thankful that she hasn't forgotten. =)

What's the plans for tmr?
Mira's Lunch Party at Conrad Centennial from 3pm onwards..
something small, not too fancy..

And then the wild party at Rippled Bar, 11pm onwards..

And then, *ehem ehem.. The rest of the night will be spent with Azry so i know you know ok? OK.

I hope everything's gonna go well..

ALL i know are invited (for the parties, i mean.). The reason why i can't personally invite some of you is because OF ALL DAYS, M1 DECIDED TO INTERFERE WITH MY OUTGOING SERVICES TODAY.

what a present.

And where is RINA?!??!! i miss you babe!
come home to Mami soon!

So there you go, my 18th birthday.

OMFG!! I'M LEGAL ALREADY!



ps: I'm so sorry for you Nycer.. i hope you're taking it well.
I can't help but feel bad knowing that im celebrating my 18th birthday when you're losing someone..but hey, it's all uncalled for i guess..
I do wish to see you soon. I mean, at my lunch party. Please do make it. I love you girl, take care.

Going out to Diy : I LOVE YOU BITCH!!!!

I'm officially 18 as im typing this.

To all who's mattered to me in life, i wanna thank you.

I just got home from a family supper at East Coast Lagoon and im full as ever.
Phil's asking me out tonite, God knows where he wants to meet.
That cute gay customer i had a few days back.

Oh well. My initial plan to hit DBL O has died, i actually opted for sufficient sleep at home, but since Phil's wanting to see me.. Bring it on. =)



Happy Birthday to myself. =)

It's 5.13 pm on 29th June 2006 and i'm feeling ibby jibbies of a regular pre-birthday celebration.
I am excited to turn 18, what more over the next few days, where i have all the permission in the world to have my own dose of fun.

Last night, Diy and i made way to DB for a short while. Missed dancing and grooving, so we decided to head down to that hellhole for awhile. It was me, her and Rizal. We were in happy spirits until...

.... the Rastaman Chant came by.

We were high on bong by 2 am, and it sucked. i mean the high was nice and floaty, mellow and serene..so having that kinda high in a club proved to make matters worse.

Another self-discovery ; i should take weed in a comfortable environment where i can just lie down or something.
Being high on weed is tiring u know..ur eyes become all puffy and u get really, really mellow.

So yeah. Since DB was packed to the brim by the kinda crowd im beginning to despise, Diy and i decided to retire for the night.

It so funny that Diy finds Rizal (yes, Frogie Rizzle) a turn on. OMFG tat's so funny. Heh.

Besides that, my girl and i were slack to our wits.. so damn bloody bored and annoyed by the fucked up place.
I can't give myself a reason to why i still keep going to that place.

Anyhoos.

I'm turning 18 in a few hour's time and already im making plans to DBL O tonite. But if it's too much of a hassle for three hours of party, then i say forget it.
I can always go when i have a chauffeur or a rich guy by my side to buy me drinks. =)

Of course im not that cheap lah, but it would be better. Heh.

And now im thinking, would Azry get me a present?
Is he busy tryna purchase a gift for me? tearing his brain cells apart just to remember the little things i like?
oh wells.
It's not like im hoping for that. And you might be going ' yeah riiiiiite....'.
Yeah rite!

I really do ponder ok! i really do wonder if he's getting me a gift. Cos plan is, after the party at Ripples, im heading back to my room at Conrad with him.
So Azry and me are gonna spend another night together..but this time at Conrad dok!
King size bed some more!

ooo la la.

I neeeeed a brazillian and i so very muchly need to wax my legs. i haven't shaved them for months sia.
and i wanna buy a new nightie for my Conrad experience...
holy shit, i've never said those words before man.

Not ever in the past 2 years i was ever with Wan, never was i so excited to spend the night with a man.
But why, why Azry?

I just wanna soak in the bath tub with bubbles..lying in his chest till my feet turn blue.
Just bathe each other with bubbles, underneath the thick foam.. aw fuck!! aaargfhhhfghgfhg!!!
and then sprinkle rose petals all over the bed..
OMFG that would be the best ever bday present i got from an opposite sex. =)

I seriously can't wait for Saturday.
So i think i shall screw the plan for tonight to allow maximum pent-up excitement for my birthday weekend.

confirm bombastico.

So here it is, my itenary for Saturday 1st July. Oh and the reason why it's a Saturday is because i only get my pay on the Friday itself so yeah.
Ok? ok.

Mini-buffet Lunch at Conrad Centennial Hotel from 3-6pm.
Small array of food, but hey, im cooking so don't miss this chance ok. I don't always cook, you know.
Room number will be confirmed again, cos the hotel hasn't given me a room number due to occupancy.
Dress code is casual smart, look good and presentable cos you'll have to walk thru the hotel.
And erm..what else?
Bring swim wear if u think u wanna jump into the pool for awhile.
I'm asking for off from work that night so that i can attend to my guests during the party..

And Azry will be dropping by during his break to feast on my cooking. =)
*melts

At about 11pm or so, i'll be making my way to Ripples Bar for the official party, where there'll be booze, music, crowd and get this : Men on Bartop ; Stripping. Clad in g-strings and chains.
Sinful Saturday.

So for those who wanna join us for booze at Ripples later on the night, don't forget to collect a door gift from me during the lunch party.. It'll be ur 'entrance ticket' to the club so u go in for free.

WIDE SMILE

##

I think that God made me and Azry meet at the most rightest time. We got to know each other on triple six day, 060606. And i never once regret.
Now that my birthday's coming, i wanna see how special he'll make me feel.
Then again, im not hoping on anything.. just that i want to observe how i mean to him? yeah something like that.

And ever since triple six day, we've been in contact EVERYDAY. we really do contact everyday. the sms-es, the calls..
the contact.

And i can see us growing close. I can see us taking our time in this. In whatever we're doing. Neither of us know what's in store for us. What we really want out of each other. Because, it's still too early to tell.
We are just seeing each other's compatibility. Whether we can connect, whether we can understand, whether we are, at the end of the day, compatible.

So far.. so good.
And i hope it just gets better as we go.


ps: Happy birthday to my good friend Suhairy. I thank you for being one of the most influential characters in my life thus far. You never failed to make me feel loved, and cherished. Like a brother, i know i can always count on you for support. Happy birthday my dear friend..i hope this day would bring you many more good years of friendship to come..

7 random facts:

1. I think i am most beautiful in the morning, when i just wake up before a shower.

2.I talk to myself in the toilet all the time. (shit! now u know.)

3. I get hyper ( in a good way) when i see my sisters fighting.

4. I have a bad habit of biting my cuticles, the reason why i don't go for manicures.

5. I like to party.

6. My birthday's coming real soon, people.

7. I think i'm special somehow.

7 things that scare me.

1. Not able to wake up to work the next day.

2. Dying in an accident.

3. Retribution.

4. Ghosts.

5. Screwing up big time.

6. Falling in love with someone who won't love me.

7. Getting married to an old (but rich) man.

7 random music at the moment.

1. El Farol by Carlos Santana

2. Sientelo by Speedy

3. Kesetiaan by Siti Sarah

4. Buttons by PCD

5. Here Without You by Three Doors Down

6. Unbelievable by Craig David

7. Glitch by Glitched

7 things i like the most.

1. My wallet

2. Nano my cat

3. My blog

4. My inflatable mattress

5. Early morning sweet sms-es from Azry.

6. His bike.

7. My ass, duh!

7 things i say most.

1. Chow Cheeebye.

2. Fuck lah!

3. Hey, wassup?

4. Hower uuuuu

5. Okayyyyy.

6. Uh - huhhhhhrrrhhhh...

7. Yeah.

7 people to do this.

1. Diy

2. Nisa

3. Nad

4. Karooooona!

5. Safrina (do it on Friendster or something?)

6. Kai

7. Ayul

Thank you!

It's always like this for me. I'll be the one falling first, in any situation. That's why when i put up my defences, they're as solid as a steel cage. Cos when i do fall, i am defenceless.

I've fallen.

Nikola could read from my face that when i do fall in love with a man, i fall very very deeply.. i am very loyal, and i get crazy in love.

That's why, i need a man who's worth it.

##

Had dinner with Nikola, a Yugoslavian customer who came by Chico's 2 nites back and offered me a job opurtunity in his billion-making company.
Had dinner with him at Shangri-La, and i felt like a queen.. what's more is that it was a buffet style of all cuisines..u name it. Sushi bar, italian kithen.. and my favourite of course was the dessert island. they had a fucking CHOCOLATE FOUNTAIN!!!!!!!!!!!

i nearly dived in, i swear. and what's better is Nikola is offering me a trip to Switzerland for a week, all expenses paid (plus shopping allowance). And im bringing my family so yahooooo!!!!!

Switzerland here we come!!!

##

I feel lucky in a sense, i connect with mature (note: rich) customers nearly 80% of the time but i haven't found any of them to be husband/bf material. i still stick to the typical Singaporean men and i fall deep into them.

Azry.Azry.Azry.

You drive me crazy boy, you drive me up the wall.

It's not that it's a one way thing going on between me and him, just that i don't know how he feels.. yes, he does things for me.. we've made love.. he keeps in contact with me everyday..

but i need to see some more.

that's the thing about two people who have given their best to each other. they wanna see more.

im not asking for a r/ship, don't get me wrong. i just want to see him fall.Fall the way i did..
and be devoted. to me. i think.

i want to see him fight. Fight for what he believes is his.

I may not be his at the moment, but i could tell from the conversation we had that he wouldn't wanna share me..

Mira : Darling, how would you react if i told you that i still contact my ex bf and that i still meet up with him for sex once in awhile?

Azry : *In shock* It's better for me not to know.

And when i was pissed-ass drunk on Saturday night, and Diy called him like 28 times over a time period of 2 hours, he got so shocked.
He was telling me..

Azry : Just the night before we were spending the night at ECP, then the next night u got so drunk.. i don't understand why lah. So shocking u know.

AW... so he does care. Initially i thought he didn't cos he was listening to my story like it was just another story..
Then when he really did tell me how he felt was when i told him how badly i was wasted.
It was the worst ya'll. i have never in my life been so drunk, i thought i was gonna drown in my own puke.

Like what Nisa would be saying is this ; i was wasted like a FISH.

Diy my girl was there by my side all along..making sure i was fine. and im glad it was her. I wouldnt wanna ask for anyone else. cos only she knew how i'd feel if i were to get so drunk and end up wailing..she'd know what's going thru my mind. she would stroke my head..make me feel better.
She'd be there.
And i thank her from the bottom of my heart for being there that night.

##

It's starting to get a little random now, but i gotta go. I have to go somewhere.
And tonight, im meeting my sayang again..he asked me out to Soccer at DB.
I miss him, and i think..i think.. i may be falling in love with him..

Sounds dangerous.

Azry and i made love last night.

I'm sure that's enough to keep your thoughts running wild. =)

And yes bitch, im very open about this. Cos i feel that this is where i can vent out my verbal emotions..

Let me begin.

Last night, was magical.
We met up under my block where he picked me up. We rushed down to NTUC to get ourselves a bottle of a Yellowtail Chardonnay, one of Australia's best tasting white wines.Made of peach and coconut, it's a must try.
Anyways..
Upon reaching ECP, we had ourselves supper at McD's where we sat and chatted for awhile..about his family and about mine; we were very open about it too..
About who we were before these years and how we have changed individually..

So yeah, the normal getting to know each other better talk.
Afterwhich we grabbed a few necessities at 7-11 and headed down to find our rightful spot.
Pit 32C area, and we found a nice patch of grass underneath two coconut trees..lomantic u!

Had fun pitching the tent together..trying to figure out which goes where and so on and so forth..and after much hardwork and broken backs, we got the tent up. and we were both contented fucks.

You see, Azry and me have a lot of things in common..that's what i've learnt. but we are both generally two very different people. our passion for things in life are almost similar, just that he's a more stubborn and independent character than i am.
We both simply love the outdoors. We both love travelling, and dream of being able to travel around the world with the cold hard cash we earn..

That was the few things we talked about over sipping wine after we pitched the tent. Sat at a nearby bench, and we chatted all night..till four in the morning. Goodness! time really flies when you're having a great time,doesn't it?
Time's a bitch herself.
So anyways..

After having a bottle of that Chardonnay, we decided to head down to the shores..to have a romantic walk.
It was romantic alright.
Picture perfect, and nothing else mattered..
The sky was a queer shade in colour, and the view was fantastic. (I know, East Coast?!)
The breeze... oh, to die for.
It's the kinda breeze you wanna share feeling with your other half..
and at that moment, my other half was Azry...

I hugged him and he hugged me, and we played 'guess that shape of the cloud' game since it was a rather cloudy night.
Had fun making out the funny little shapes, and getting to know each other's impulsive natures with that..

And then we decided to sit down. He had me by his side, and all we did was listen to the sounds of 'Unbelievable' by Craig David, and we were both in silence.
My chest was swelling with a run of emotions..the song said it all.
I was falling, already.
Unbelievable.

We headed back to the tent to retire for the night..and let me just warn you, intercourse wasn't even on my mind..
As we lay by each other, talking and laughing and giggling, we started kissing. I knew i grew weak with every touch of his lips, but i couldn't help it..and then i was thinking, 'is this it?'.

I was telling myself...let it whatever happen, happen. and hope for the best.

I was unclothed. And so was he..the moment i felt him in me, boy there was no turning back..
It felt right.
It felt safe.
But most importantly, it felt complete.

I felt like that was what i've waited for all this while..the right person. I swear, the lovemaking changed me. Somehow.

It was different, and it was passionate..and passion didn't only come from me..but it was from him that passion was really felt..
I felt at such ease, overwhelmed with so much emotions..and we rocked each other all through the night..

I made him blow his mind and he made mine..it was beautiful, simply said.

I know we made love, cos that was what he said when we were talking about it after an hour after the whole thing begun..

Surprisingly, he didn't feel awkward about it.. He felt it being right, and he has no regrets.

Then came another round when we were about to fall asleep again, this time, we knew we wanted it. His touch just turned me on.

Another round of pure pleasure,while it rained outside and i didn't ask for it..it just happened.
We fell asleep in each other's arms..
Slept till it the bright sunny morning to see my sayang covered in sweat..dapped him dry, made him comfortable and opened up the zipper to let in the cool morning breeze..

Slept through the entire morning in each other's arms..and when i was covered in my own sweat, it was his turn to dap me dry..

It felt so comfortable, as if we've known each other for years..

And so this day begun and i shan't get into anymore details.. you get the drift.
We were glued together, and i felt good. i've never felt like this before..to feel so at ease with someone i've known for a short period of time..

There's something about us that keeps me ticking. It's how we connect with each other.. how i can sit by his side in silence, knowing that he's there. Right there, and not somewhere else.
It's how the hearts tie strings that don't have ends.

I'm falling for Azry..and i have been thinking about him alot lately.
Could this be it? Mira doesn't know. But she knows it won't be easy..
this might be the best thing that's ever happen to her, but it might just slip away...

Azry's starting his night job this coming Monday. He'll be working at Insomnia as a bouncer for a few good nights in the week, and wake up to work as a traffic warden in the day.That place called him up again, after a year of not working there,they still rely on him to do the proper job.
I shudder to think of how his health will deteriorate, or how much less of time he would have for himself what more me, but i don't care. i'm still standing by him. and i'm gonna let him know that.

Azry is my man..i see myself when im with him. Very strange.
He's the one i have always imagined him to be.
And he's right here, in my life.

But my biggest fear now is to not let him slip away..

##

On a brighter note, i just got home from Safrina's brother's wedding..and it was a beautiful one.
It's always nice to see my old friends..tho Mul wasn't there, i still could feel her presence cos her brothers were there doing the rewang.

And my day ends here, where i tell my loyal reader of my latest juice in lovelife.

Mohammad Nor Azry, my sayang.

*misses him.

Having supper with Adib in a few minute's time. I neeeeed a driver tonight, i dunno why.
Was supposed to be clubbing but since im sucha fucking lazy-ass, i scraped the whole plan and decided to join my precious Adib for supper and soccer.

Going clubbing, especially if u wanna get pissed-high, u gotta have money man. No money, no talk. That's the new habit i've adopted since half an hour ago.
And you pay for ur own fucking drinks so yeah.

I shall just wait for my 18th, when i turn legal and become rich from my pay.

Other than that, i dont wanna screw up my chance for tmr nite. Camping at ECP with Azry..and im having the guy for the whole night, what more could i ask for, rite?
Met up with him last night and just now...missed him like shit so i got him to come all the way.. hahha.

got to touch, hug, kiss, talk, spank and look at him.waaaah made my day already. heheh.
and just now he came by Chico's where i passed him a power Chicken Tikka for lunch. Apparently i was at Chico's just to hangout..and so yeah, met up with MY SAYANG since he was patrolling town area..

OMFG i saw photos of him when he took last year, when he was working as a gym instructor. MY GOODNESS!
i felt like riding him there and then. HAHA. so hotttt!!!!

sssssssssssssssssssssssssssss~

Fuck man. im in need of some tender loving and touching. i need to feel like a woman again.

Should i do it tmr nite? yes i vowed not to, but should i let things happen? should i jeopardize our friendship for one uncertain ounce of pleasure....?

oh wells.
stay tuned to find out.

tc. =)

The day has been good. It was almost perfect.

I went for the interview, and i got a job. I met Nitin and Rizal at Chico's earlier on and Nitin had actually fought for my position in the restaurant. So im working there on a part-time basis, and i don't mind that at all..

I met up with Regu, the owner of Ripples Bar just now in the evening and i came by to the club to see what can be done. He wants me to design the bar for him, and im ever so eager to do so. Ripples was closed la just now, but i had my own free flow of drinks, imagine that! my goodness! but the only drink i landed on was a small bottle of Heineken. serves me well.

We then headed down to Cuppage, and i must say that Regu is a funny fella la he..we walked all the way, and he introduced me to a shortcut whereby u have to pass by Lee Kuan Yew's house. while passing by we saw some Gurga soldiers and we were making fun of them..

I was having a nice time, Regu's a nice chap.

Dinner at Cuppage and soccer all on him..what more could i ask for? And so the Swiss won the game, and Regu won his $750 bet. and that's another thing i learnt ; go out on a date with a guy who's betting. if he strikes lucky on that night, you're lucky too. =)

We had a nice chat..and he sent me home with a cab..

I'm supposed to produce a Design Proposal to him, so that he i can charge him for the designs..im thinking about a price ranging from $400-$600? yeah, that'll be good.

and more and more people are asking me to give them a massage. i should start charging them sia!

Azry and i are going camping sometime this week..pitch a tent and spend the night at East Coast..he thought up that brilliant plan so yeeeeeeehaaaaaaaa!!!!!
No sex, i assure you. *bows

Azry also asking for massage. I can give him a free one la, since i have the whole night with him..
what he said last night made my day;

Mira : So you wanna watch soccer with me tonight or not darling?
Azry : I dunno lah sayang. I working morning tau tmr. If my off day the next day then nevermind.. don't even mention watching soccer lah..i'm yours the whole evening.

Mira : Wah! Really ah??!! *happy fuck

HOHOHOH.

mine the whole evening? yummy..haha.
Don't get me wrong..'yummy' not in a sexual kinda way but hey! i can have this bugger for myself the entire night! i'd prolly be hugging him so tight, i won't let go..
I miss him, that's why.

Now let me revert this topic to a more serious side. What Diy and Imran are going thru is another rough patch in time. I don't know what went wrong where, but im just hoping things are gonna be alright.
I'm seriously hoping for the best..im actually very afraid of what's to come.
I'm not sure if i can stand strong any longer, seeing the both of them like this.
But u see, time heals all wounds.
And people grow wiser each and every day.
So i hope with this doing, the two will find solace in themselves..something they haven't found in the past three and a half years.
To my babes, i wish you guys all the best. Life goes on, and i will try my best to be here..even if im crumbling, i'd still be here.

It used to be us five, Wany,Skye,Mira,Imran,Diy. Slowly ..we're breaking apart.

'Dear Acres Supporters,
The scale of suffering for animals in the world today is unprecedented.
The World Society for the Protection of Animals (WSPA), of which Acres is a Member Society, has launched a new initiative called "Animals Matter To Me" to achieve global recognition that animals matter, that they can feel pain and can suffer and that we have a responsibility to put an end to cruelty around the world
'Animals Matter To Me' represents the biggest ever global animal welfare initiative linking the entire animal welfare movement under one strategic goal - global recognition that animals are sentient beings, capable of feeling pain and suffering.'

Babes, sign your petition at http://www.animalsmatter.org/

It won't take much time, just be there to show the world that you care for the helpless.

Thank You.

I thank God once again for yet another job offer at my finger tips. I know why, but eversince my devastating Aqil episode, i have been offered jobs when in times last time i used to hunt for them.

After my heartache at Chico's and Crystal running her mouth, which eventually got me terminated, i received a phonecall earlier this morning..about a job offer at PANDAN LOOP.
it is far..but it's my first ever admin job under a marine company. pay is 1.2k for the first 3 months and with good performance, they'll raise it to 1.4k.

sounds good, no? and being the family woman that i am, it's a 9-5 job. not too bad..i think this would allow me to do the business even better. what's nice to hear is that the environment is flexible..minus point is the distance, that's it.

I'm scheduled for an interview later at 3pm and she's expecting to see my formal resume. WHAT THE HELL IS THAT!?!?

shit. i suddenly remembered doing it in school last time. i should've paid attention while lecturer was trying to tell us how important a resume is.

Mum is happy for me..and im happy seeing her happy for me. she's sending me to the place, and the last time she did that for a previous job interview, i got the job immediately so im crossing my fingers.

TTFN.

Oye como va..
Mi ritmo,
Bueno pa gozar..
Mulata.
Oye como va..
Mi ritmo,
Bueno pa gozar..
Mulata!


Listening to the smooth sounds of Carlos Santana's 'Oye Como Va' on a desirable Sunday afternoon.
And so i was put off the schedule again.
I hate it when noone does anything for me. Not that i NEED anyone to do something about for me, just that when it was their turn, i did the best i could to make sure they worked. and they arrrre working now..

oh wells.

what comes around, goes around.

On a lighter note, Azry misses me... *pure glee!
We're meeting up later tonight and nothing else matters....nothing else....

will be bumming the whole day at home..i owe my mum alot of housework sia. and she's beginning to claw my back about it.

This post is rather random but you see, it's Mira's. so yeah.
and i suddenly feel the urge to go thread my brows.
how ah?

I received attractive coupons from NTUC Income for my birthday treats..and i am a sucker for travel and leisure u see, so they gave me a coupon for a stay at Banyu Biru Villa Bintan with 30% off the package. sounds enticing! haha..of course i have a choice of either the Villa or Costa Sands Resort Downtown East or Changi Flats. Forget the other two, im going Bintan over the weekends man! haha..

I'll ask Azry and his friends to come along la..cos each Villa has 2 rooms so yeah. Make the best of it. And Bintan is like a stone-throw away..worth the weekends.

UNLESS.

someone talks me (well) into having a chalet and inviting all my lovelies...no, not for my birthday..just another retarded last-minute-in-hopes-of-good-turnout chalet party.
???

And then i have coupons from Swensens, Optic Point (which proves useful), Starhub and Chrysalis.

I don't care. i want to work! i really wanted to work this week, but i just had to blow it up big time. and somebody just won't help me with it. I AM SAD.

=-(

Reading Nisa's entry about A VEN got my heart thumping. No, not cos im aroused or anything..just that the article was peppered with so many words containing (and pertaining) sex, i got my mind clouded in a rut.

Sex. and activity i have been barred doing. ok not exactly barred, my other side's telling me to hold on for the right guy. while i may have split personalities at times, the other half is a free-spirited and very curious individual.

Yes yes. sex. what's sex to me now? a dream. i can only dream of having sex. Im not saying that im desperate/sympathy-seeking or deprived, don't get me wrong. It's just that i smile to myself at what sex is/was. To me, sex is like what Nisa would call 'having a baby'. Yes..i can get all wild, but in the end at the end of the sex, i seek and lust for passion.

I'm a passionate motherfucker ya'll, and i vow to make my man feel like a man.

And the attraction i have for certain guys (eg.Azry) don't come along with anything sexual,pardon me. I adore him, and it's different than if i yearn for him..

get the drift?

I may be 18, but my view on sex now is totally different..is about feeling each other under the ballet of stars..saying our 'i love yous' as we rock each other all night long..staring into the depths of our souls, endearing the physical ecstasy that is being felt..

My oh my..i can but dream of having it again..=)

The days have been good and weird at the same time.
My heart does somesaults good times in a day..i wonder why.

I am too lazy to blog about detailed events in life that's happened so far..for those whom i've met during this break from work im having, u've been fed with the latest.

For those who havent, till the next time, yeah?

Alriteee.Mira wants to sleep now..and Azry's always on her mind, she wonders why.
She misses him, misses seeing his face, smiling at him, holding his hand..and laughing with him.
She misses her life too, but then this is what life's about isn't it?

Take care ya'll.

Late Nights and Caberets.

I am back people, after days and nights of being away from home, and only to be at home to sleep.
The days are spent working ; nights spent watching the World Cup games.
Seems to me, i have lost touch in life. seriously.
i mingle with the few people whom i work with; whom i club with; whom i watch soccer with.

Balls!

I miss so many aspects in life, but no fret. im just adapting to this new change in lifestyle. i know that at the end of the day, i still have family love.


I don't wanna get into all the details.

So, i shall just highlight.

Highlights of the week?

1) Met a new (almost decent) guy by the name of Azry. Known to his friends as 'Epok'. My darling, my Epok. 29 years of age, handles my heart well. so far..so good.
Very caring, very funny, very interesting and exciting individual to have by.

Was a bouncer at Papa Joe's and Insomnia for nine years..so you can roughly imagine his built.*sizzles.


2) A customer at Chico's bought me a Swarovski brooch. His name is John and he's 47 years old. From Oregon, he's in sg for a business trip and is staying till the 20th. Had dinner with him at Timbre and he is a nice companion to have by.
Don't worry, i don't sleep with my customers so yeah.

3)Nathan. The head bouncer at DB asked me out. *BIG LAUGH

4) I have been a virgin since GOD KNOWS WHEN. so basically Mira hasn't been having sex for quite some time.

Which is good.

And please please please don't get me wrong. This attraction i have for my sayang Azry, isn't a sexual one OKAY. i don't lust for him. i just feel safe and secure when im with him, in his arms..and that's all i need to make my heart go whooo!
don't worry folks, Mira's alright. im not in love..not as yet..maybe never will be again. and i won't get myself hurt, Insyallah.

This is how my life is for now.

No more 'guys'.
The one who could be my next big thing will be a MAN.

Going Hard Rock Cafe for dinner with Azry in an hour's time. and then catching the two soccer games later at HRC and DB respectively.

Wan's working tonight and he wants me to come by..so i told him that i shall watch the Argentina game at Devils while seeing him work.

My babes Diy and Imran are planning to club at HRC tonight, the very reason why me and Azry are coming down as well..

Azry actually wanted to go to Chijmes but i told him, make that another night, whenever we having our off nights or something..and going anywhere with him isn't gonna be difficult cos he rides..so yeah.

i gotta chiow ppl, i wanna get ready for a whole night of fun!

Turra~.

I get sick only twice a year..and it's only and anual thing when i get really really sick. So this time of the year, where the weather changes like Paris Hilton's wardrobe, i fall sick again.
but it ain't that bad.
maybe because i haven't exposed myself to so much work ever. i've been very used to going to school, right? and even when i do have late nights, i rest well the next day.
but working doesn't permit me to do so. working takes up twelve hours a day and when i do get to party till late is if i have my off day the next day. if not, i have to prepare myself a place to sleep for a good few hours before i start work again.

anyhoos.

lately, i have caught the flu bug. beats me where i got it. maybe from the spreading pandemic at work or maybe just the weather.

i went partying on Tuesday at night at the usual hellhole, DB, just for the sake of being there. seriously.
if u consider sitting down, smoking, and watching people dancing any form of partying, then that was what i got out of Tuesday night.
but it didn't just end there.
i ended up making friends.
a group of five guys, one of them approached me.
they were having lots of fun dancing and irritating each other on the dancefloor, i can't help but sit one corner and laugh at them.
so one of them, by the name of Azry came up to me and stroke a conversation..and i ended up chatting with all five of them. apparently one of them goes by the name of Ridwan and he's the bouncer at DB too. the one with a piercing on his left eyebrow. The one whom i thought was atleast 28 but turned out to be at a comfortable age of 24.

so i sat at mcdonalds with this fun bunch, and i was having fun listening to them being asswipes.
when it was already like 5 in the morning, they made a move and Azry sent me home on his superfour. agian, another superfour. just like the one the late Mapet had.

so the moment i reached home, which was around early morning, i had my shower and fell asleep...only to wake up at 8 in the evening. imagine that! eleven hours of pure sleep. no dreams, noone dared disturb me. i was sleeping like a baby.

I'm meeting up with Ridwan tmr night at the open space infront of Chico's and DB tmr night when both of us are taking our smoke breaks.

and no more clubbing for me for the meantime. not only am i sick, but i have limited time. i don't want to be like Rizal, you know? club the whole night, don't go home and then go to work. that's disgusting.
and i can never go home after a night of party and come back to work again without sleeping. i've tried and i ended up sleeping until evening. how's that huh.

Alright ya'll. i gotta go. it's 9.09 am on a blistery Thursday morning.
Have a good day ahead.

They say the sky cries with you when you're feeling down. I can't help but think that way, cos today, i'm not the one who's down. And so the sky cries with you..

It's Budi's birthday!! my darling ex-classmate you achieved on not making me pissed, not even once. that nuthead is such a nice guy to be around. and he's a virgin to add to that.

So i just hung up on speaking to him on the phone just now, and he's like ' kau nak jumpe kite tak?' and im lke 'yes!!!!'. hahaha...boy, i really do miss my classmates you know.

Apart from missing school and whatsoever, i miss my Nadirah and my Haikel most. and my Alfian and my Sree.
haiyay. i do hope i get to see them later.

anyhoos.

i made a discovery yesterday. i discoveredy that Sam and i have alot in common and that we can talk all afternoon. cool huh? i never knew i would be able to click with him so easily..and stating the fact that he's a virgin too, makes me wonder how he is as a person.
i am a curious little girl, always wanting to find things out on my own.
and i didnt know that i had placed my shirt in his locker yesterday..so at the end of the day, he was commenting that his shirt smelt of me. i found that rather amusing. noone's ever said they smelt of me before. and when i asked him how i smell and whether it smelt good, he replied 'you smell like Mira lah..and it smells nice.'

=)

hey, he's right ok. i do smell nice.i smell of vanilla milk. cos that's my Victoria's Secrets cologne.
it's supposed to be an erotic/delicious/enticing kinda scent..so yeah.

alright, i wanna go bathe now. working for dinner tonight.

Turra.

It's a sunday night and i just got back from work, shacked as hell but in high spirits.
I can't explain why i am in high spirits. I amaze myself all the time. =)

Work was fun! i came in at 7 instead of the usual 6 cos Dad was late. and then wham!
it was full house by like 7.30pm. and get this : it was only me, Diy, Rafi and Rawat on the floor, and we had our hands full. things did go insane, but everything was under control..operations went smoothly, which was good.

before work, dad and i actually dropped by at Massimo Dutti's atTaka to visit Lutfi. He was quite busy..first time i saw him going about in the boutiqe so many times.
But dad and me kept it casual, we window-shopped for awhile..and approached the counter, where that meatsack was. Lutfi darling is so so cute. i can literally eat him alive.
I introduced my dad to him as Jack and i said that he was my bf, and Lutfi's jaw kinda stayed ajar for awhile...hahah. until dad broke the ice and said that he was my father after all..
so the conversation went well, with dad bringing both me and Lutfi to a blush.

I brought him an Apple Turnover from Delifrance and he said that i shouldn't trouble myself..

Me: Here you go, i got you something from Delifrance. Nah.
Lutfi: Oh dear (smiles).. you shouldn't trouble yourself..
Dad: You know, that statement? the last time i heard it was twenty years ago..and i said those same words to a woman who did the same thing..and now, she's my wife.
*wide smile.
Me : Ohhhh...k.....*face red already.
-Lutfi's colleague was already giggling her ass away while she pasang telinga on us
Lutfi: Ahaha..*looks at Mira and blushes.

What the hell,dad?!

anyways..all ended well...

and work was thumbs up.

so clearly, my day was good. even though i had quite a sucky end to my partying last night, it helps that i can't remember a thing.

So let me leave you with some pictures to view. =)


Diyanahbe and Mirame.


Diy,Sady,Rawat,Mira.


Papi Sady and me. *loves.


Don Rizzle.


Abg Slamat and me.

Oh..and it was Rawat's last day working with us, so farewell to our penguin. it was nice working with him, tho he was a pain in the ass, but i know we'll all miss him..
Goodbye Rawat, all the best for your future.

Gooznait everyone.

I wanna have my well-deserved shower and sleep with happy thoughts.

Turra.

Pardon my last entry, i was quite freaked out when i received that 'letter' in my email.

You know what, after much cut-throat screaming and personal harrasment to the ex-bf, i finally gotten my replacement SIM card. which means, im still using the same old number, but i would still be uncontactable until end of June cos im broke already and i haven't got a phone.

So last night had been another blast of a time, just that it didn't really end that well.
Went to cheex out of boredom with Diy and i ended up drunk. Or wasted, whichever you call it. i couldn't do anything else. i couldn't even think straight.
bumped into Rizal Cine there also. yes, that guy Wany kinda dated a looong time ago.

He stuck with us all the way, since we were some sort aquainted. I heard many stories coming from his mouth about someone, and i didn't even had to ask. And i swear, they weren't good. Oh whatever, i can't believe this guy wholesale either, he might be twisting his words. But if he really did see what he said to me he saw, then my oh my...
i won't be surprised if he's right also..

anyways.

so yes, the story continues.

after cheex, we gatals decided to drop by DB since it's saturday night and it'll be my last time partying hard without worrying about work the next day. so plan was, Diy and Rizal hitch a cab while i was supposed to ride with Rizal's fren, Remy, on his bike. that pathetic motherfucker was interested in me, and i must say that he was brave to have done what he did last night.

I don't mean to be harsh, but that guy ought to GO AND DIE. while Diy and Rizal were on the way to DB in the cab, this guy actually stopped by a quiet carpark at Fort Canning and wanted to 'lepak' (or so it seems). Yes, i was drunk. but i WAS aware of my surroundings ok! and this guy has learnt the hard way that when Mira is drunk, she gets violent and turns into a she-man.
He told me to get off cos his hips was giving him problems. and then we sat by the carpark, and he was taking his own sweet time smoking...trying to spend 'time' with me. and then he started coming up with stories like 'Diy and Rizal went to have supper for awhile, let's just wait here for them'.

and then it hit me.

this guy is trying to be funny. i told you fucker, im not interested. this guy beats it man. he stepped on my groove the same night i knew him. and then what did Mira do? Mira had her helmet on, you see. so if he did try to touch her, she'd prolly give him a hard blow to the head with it.
fortunately he didn't touch me. so there wasn't any violence,to my dismay. duh, i really wanted to beat him up until he died or something. so what i did was yelled into his face ' kau bawak aku gi devils skarang kalau tidak aku tendang bopleh kau kat sini jugak!' and i yanked his hp outta his hands and dialled Rizal's number. so apparently, Rizal and Diy were already at DB, dunno why this fella making up stupid stories tau.

HAIYAAAAAAHHH.

men are dumbasses sometimes. ladies, this is one of the many reasons why i'm still single.

Remy was embarrassed when we arrived infront of DB where Rizzle,Diy and Rizal (yeah we had both Rizals in the house) were waiting cos by then i was tipsy-moody-ready-to-strike-violent-as-hell.and i was cussing and swearing and telling them about what the fuck just happened.

i shan't go into details and bore you with the night spent at DB. the same old shit, no love lost. shared a bucket of Corona and we didn't even get onto the dancefloor. we were making ourselves busy at the lounge area.

so six o'clock came and i was NOT at all ready to go home. i reaked, i was drunk, and i was murmuring. funny i didn't puke, which saved me alot of hassle. so then God showed me that guys are actually a caring bunch, after i suffered with an idiot at the carpark earlier on.
Rizal Cine was already asking me to go over his place (with good intentions) but cons is, his frend Remy would be there...and then Rizzle's dad is at home so i can't crash at his place..and lastly Arif (Crystal's new bf) was willing to open a room for me..
so i was left with the most perfect choice : Arif's offer. he really is a sweetheart. he took out money like water, making sure me and Diy were safe and not sorry.
in the cab, he was really worried for me..he actually made a detour to drop me first, then he went home.

He's a really nice guy. and i feel so indebt to him. Crystal better make him happy. and now i see why she was rooning over him..saying that he's sweet and this and that. now i see.

so anyways, i do wanna put up Diy's Bday celebs pics but im too lazy..too many of them and photobucket's a bitch. so is Yahoopics. someone help me out here please, i have the album on Yahoo Pics but i don't know how to share them to the world.

Goodbye ya'll. I wanna get bathing and go to work. It's a sunday! yay! slow crowd, confirm.

anyhoos.take care.


Resident bitch over and out.
xoxo