Reading Nisa's entry about A VEN got my heart thumping. No, not cos im aroused or anything..just that the article was peppered with so many words containing (and pertaining) sex, i got my mind clouded in a rut.

Sex. and activity i have been barred doing. ok not exactly barred, my other side's telling me to hold on for the right guy. while i may have split personalities at times, the other half is a free-spirited and very curious individual.

Yes yes. sex. what's sex to me now? a dream. i can only dream of having sex. Im not saying that im desperate/sympathy-seeking or deprived, don't get me wrong. It's just that i smile to myself at what sex is/was. To me, sex is like what Nisa would call 'having a baby'. Yes..i can get all wild, but in the end at the end of the sex, i seek and lust for passion.

I'm a passionate motherfucker ya'll, and i vow to make my man feel like a man.

And the attraction i have for certain guys (eg.Azry) don't come along with anything sexual,pardon me. I adore him, and it's different than if i yearn for him..

get the drift?

I may be 18, but my view on sex now is totally different..is about feeling each other under the ballet of stars..saying our 'i love yous' as we rock each other all night long..staring into the depths of our souls, endearing the physical ecstasy that is being felt..

My oh my..i can but dream of having it again..=)

The days have been good and weird at the same time.
My heart does somesaults good times in a day..i wonder why.

I am too lazy to blog about detailed events in life that's happened so far..for those whom i've met during this break from work im having, u've been fed with the latest.

For those who havent, till the next time, yeah?

Alriteee.Mira wants to sleep now..and Azry's always on her mind, she wonders why.
She misses him, misses seeing his face, smiling at him, holding his hand..and laughing with him.
She misses her life too, but then this is what life's about isn't it?

Take care ya'll.