Tonight, i've made many realisations in life.
And one would be ;

Alcohol toys with lives.

Think about it.

Those words kept playing in my head when i was about to fall asleep, the very reason why im typing all this down.

The statement i just made, would be agreeable to some, and ignorant to others.
I have come to a certain conclusion to safely say that yes, Alcohol does ruin lives.
It blinds the heart. And most importantly, all muslims should know that it's against our so called principles.

And you know, i am a person with very high morales myself. Yes, i am liberal and i can go wild all night. BUT. i do stick by my dignity and my own traditional values.

My birthday lunch went well, my thank yous to those who turn up and to those who didn't, you weren't forgotten. I'm just glad that everyone was happy.
And let's just say that i'd like to end it here cos the rest of the night was disastrous. And i shan't pour out the bad details, then that's just gonna spoil the whole agenda, no?

Let's skip tha part where i had to go (bad) partying, and then proceed onto the rest of the morning i had with Azry.

He is my sweetheart, but as Harry says, i should play my game a little bit more tough.
And as Nisa says, i should 'maz the man out'. Good choice of words, my loves.

We had a bubble bath which i intially planned for and ended up having him doing all the bubble work, and we just rested in each other's arms the entire time..
made love, and had a romantic breakfast at the high-class tiffin room.
Crashed on our king-sized bed till afternoon, snoring away..side by side.
what more could i ask for?

It was all i ever needed the whole night, and he topped it off with the sweet whip cream that he is.
But of course, everything's lovey-dovey and sweet in the beginning, agree?
That's why..i've decided to start playing my game smart.
I'm not gonna be the go-getter in this one.
Screw 'If you really want something in life, you gotta go for it' for now. If it's not meant to be, i have nothing to lose.
If it'll work out, then im not gonna be the man in this.

I'll stick by my Lady Luck. =)

I've also realised that some people make mistakes for me to open up my eyes.
Yes of course, everyone makes mistakes. And ALL mistakes are forgivable. I do believe in that, you know.Just that after what's happened, i know who to stick by and who not to. I know my true friends well now.
People come and go in your life, even in a blink of an eye.

I'm a changed person after all this, you know what i mean? and i thank you for letting it happen, to give me a reason to go...

to give me a jump start on the life im about to lead, a healthier and better one indeed.

Cos i believe, when a person hurts u so bad, it's a sign.
Either this, or that.
Simple.

And i've taken my step. My step, is to step OUT.
We're just colleagues now, and that's all that's to matter. Nothing more, nothing less.

People make mistakes, and it's up to you to take it in.
I've taken it in this way.

*And you know what, i suddenly appreciate a certain someone, because i know atleast she won't do such a thing. She's never, and i belif, never would do such a thing you did that night.
Oh for the love of God.

I'm getting tired going round in circles with my words, just so you know i have to work tmr.
I'm contented being this way, thank you.

Goodnight my lovelies.