Yesterday was a good day,
thanks to my Laddoos and Hairul.

Met up with Safrina,Mul and Atikah (and now they're called My Laddoos.You know, the indian sweets? Yeah those.)
cos i think they should be called that.
Sugar-coated some more.

Whenever im late to meet them or what, i fail to feel guilty cos whenever i see their exasperated faces after waiting for me for long, i can't help but fall in love with them all over again..

=D

And we had a good time at McD's whitesands, didn't we?
talking and laughing and catching up..

And the bus ride to tamp with Safrina was a soulful one, i really see how a friend loves me and i could see her disbelieve in all the things that's been happening to us since we all left school..

what can i say?
Things change with a blink of an eye.

And then i headed down to Tamp to meet Hairul, my buddy who's been there for me at the most unexpected times.
Had a nice chat, and i hope i helped him open up himself, his truest desires, and most importantly, HIS EYES.

If you want something in life, go for it. If not, drop it. Don't waste your time, life's too short to be wasted.

And for that special someone who means alot to me, im not trying to 'carry' your balls or whatsoever.
I've learnt that i needed to say those words to help u understand that I understand.
And without a doubt, i do admire the man u are - Strong, Determined,Disciplined.
I am ur bitch and i want you to know that.
I will plaster that smile on ur face at times u think the world's against you.
I'll help u pull thru the day with the littlest way i can without even seeing you, cos now, i understand the emotional battle u fight everyday for a living.
It's no joke,Azry.
And now i know.

Reason being i have been reading.
The book entitled For Women Only by Shaunti Feldhahn.
A riveting book on how to understand a man's inner life.
To understand these complexed yet simple-natured beings so that the human race wont face extinction within the next millenia.

It is fun reading this book, to see how strong (even Godly-figured) men become transparent when they are at their most vulnerable.
And ladies, get this and get this straight up that brain of urs :

MEN NEED RESPECT.

whether they deserve it or not, their whole world revolves around being respected.

And this book teaches me that men dont have what we ladies term it as 'male ego' or 'male pride', the very things that tick us off most of the time when we're with our men,
but they're just so transparent and insecure, they need to feel egoistic almost all the time.

One of the few things i've learnt out of 120 pages in that book.
So go grab it if u must, especially if u think u just can't figure your guy out.

On the contrary, i feel like im in the right path to becoming a sensible woman ; one who sees respect as something unconditional to be given to my man.
Yes, that's what they need out of everything else - unconditional respect.

They are funny the way they're wired, these men, but life wouldn't be complete without them.
*smiles.

I just recalled a good advice a friend shared with me ; never stoop as low as ur enemy in conflict, it won't bring you anywhere.
And secure people don't have to convince people they're having a great time in life,
cos real (meaning secure and streetwise-that's my definition, i dunno abt urs) people know that life isn't always smooth-sailing..

And please fuck, don't go around pretending that ur life is good when ur very basics in life isn't even correctly grounded.
This goes to you, homekid.

As for me, well.
I can't say im perfect either, and pointing out other people's flaws isn't my forte.
People dont learn from upfront scrutinity but from realisation.

Ever realised that each time u discovered something about urself, it sticks to u?
It plays again and again in ur head?
And after much replay, u start to make way for change.
(Hoping that it's good change)

I amaze myself at times, to be so liberal about things and how i fancy helping others.
Because i see helping others as a success in picking myself up from a rut, and getting someone out of there, too.

At the end of the day, life isn't about the number of breathes u take in a moment ; it's about the number of moments that take your breathe away..

Resident BITCH,over....and out.
xoxo