Good morning everyone, it's 8.18 on my clock on a sunny Sunday morning and guess what?
i just got home from clubbing.

What a night!

I had more than just fun,
i had an eye-opening experience.

And just to save myself from oversleeping, (cos an idiot like me has to go work you know, at noon some more.) i guess sharing with you my night's experience won't be such a bother.

Let me go by sequence, shall i?

Saturday night wasn't busy night at all, it was exceptionally quiet for a saturday night.
Weird as hell.
I had fun working..what with cracking my ass with Haris and all..
And the highlight of the night would be,

AZRY DROPPING BY TO GIVE ME A SURPRISE!!!!

Oh dear Lord, tell me why im smiling?

I swear. my jaw practically dropped when i saw him seated at the bar near the cashier area.
I was speaking to Haris and all, suddenly i saw a man sitting by the bar..
instincts told me to look..
and there..
i saw him, my sayang..handsome as ever, with a huge smile plastered to his face.

My eyeballs were popping out, i couldn't feel my jaw.
I was surprised ok?
Baby, gimme more of these. They could really help with my endorphins.

And so i approached him, oblivious to the world..
by then, the crowd was weakening, so i could afford to screw work for a tinie while and attend to my much needed love and fond absence of the man i've truly fallen for right now..

We hugged, and we kissed..and i introduced him to everyone.
No one was spared, expect for the chefs who were busy with closing.

Earlier on the nite, i made Azry a small little rose using a piece of serviette and a straw, and i cut out a heart-shape from a piece of plain paper and wrote, " To my teddy bear, i miss you so much, Take care. From Mira with LOVE.29/7/06." and stapled it to the stem of the hand-made rose.
thought of dropping by Insomnia to pass it to him, just to make him smile..
but then he already made me smile by appearing.
Just seeing his face makes me go tralala.
it's the first time im feeling this way for a guy, u know.

And we sat outside where we chatted, joined by Dewi, Souher and Afiq.
Rizal just had to come by and act all gay again on Azry. My poor baby, molested by an 18 year old.

As i stepped inside to help out with the orders, Souher had quite a chat with him.
As i could recall ;

Souher : So.. you and Mira, what? *sheepish grin.
Azry : *Blushes - We're seeing each other.
Souher : Ooo. ok, good. cos she talks about u everyday.
Azry : Ah? what she say ah? *kepo look.
Souher : i can't tell you, she'll kill me. but it's all good things lah, so dont worry.

My oh my. i must thank souher for being a makcik kepo for awhile, it's all good.
=)

Introduced him to Sady, and soon after he left for work..
i got to kiss him after a long time while on his bike, getting ready to zoom off.
But that wasn't enough, cos i miss every part of him.
And next tuesday, we're gg back to Harry's to have a mexican dinner and then off to Hotel 81 Orchard to spend the night together.
I really hope im done with my menses by then.
eurgh~

So half an hour passed, i was still excited.
I was still filled with an airness that left me feeling good and smiling all the way.

Azry just dropped by Mira's workplace to see her, to give her a surprise, to make her smile.
That's enuf to send her to cloud nine!!

And then..
we left for party.
Ditched DB for Devil's cos i saw someone i didn't like entering the club, and i had a bad feeling of sum sort. So Cheekys was next best option.
Upon arrival,
we were given a discount by Kali and got ourselves a jug, and half of its contents got my head spinning already.
I tell u ah, my alcohol tolerance damn bad sia now.
But, i got nothing to complain.
Not that i need the high anyways.
I have a new sense of high now. HAH.

Met Shabir for the first time, and he's a damn cute bugger.
Well-dressed, tall, handsome, cute and very captivating.
I had a perfect partner for the night.
EXCEPT for the part when he left me for a good hour to go to Zouk to meet his frens and get drunk.
So i stuck with his cousin, Faisal instead. Another fun guy, very outgoing and i had a nice time with him.
He took good care of me.. so did Feroz, the Don of Cheekys. He's ultimately the regular of the century for that club.
That guy's such a gangster, he knows ALOT of people.
So my contacts just went voooom! just by being his friend.

So when Shabir came back to Md Sultan, all of us decided to head down to Boat Quay to groove some more.
And i felt sooo scandalous cos I was kissing Shabir and Faisal on the same night.
Both guys held my hands and hugged me, but ULTIMATELY Feroz announced to EVERYONE that i was his girlfriend.
HAHAHAH

But my loyalty still stuck to Shabir, cos i knew him first, and he was my friend after all..
And he owes me a proper date to Le Baroque sometime next week, after what happened at Khushi.
MAJOR INDIAN FIGHT.
Haiyo, it's an eye-opener cos finally, i got to see how indians fight.
Like kabhi khushi kabhi gham movie like that.
Terbelit2 siallll!!!!!
I see also i pening.

So because of the improper events that occured during our supposed 'night out', he's making it up by dating me next week.
And im looking forward to that, no worries.

Suppering with Shah Alam where i was open about my affections towards Shabir, made Rizal wonder.
I told them, yes, i am very manje with Shabir, that's cos that's how we are..
Shabir is a very manje guy, and i can handle that.
But ultimately, at the end of the night and day, i seek for my man, none other than Azry.

I told him ,

Rizal : Wah..u and Shabir so cute together, so sweet..
Mira : Yes we are, but at the end of the day, my heart's with Azry.. i love him.

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I've said it.
I love him.
I can't believe i've said it :-

I LOVE AZRY.

Sayang, sayang sekali.

oh my goodness!

oh well, only time will tell, and only my heart knows where to find him.
Azry is safe in my chambers, locked.

Even if me and him don't make it to the future, (eg. relationship/marriage) i know i'll understand why one day and accept it, and i know he'll always be someone special in my life.
Someone i used to have emotions for.
I know i can never hate him.
He's like my second Zahid.

A person i could never hate,
and i love him till today.

Speaking of which, it's been a year since Zahid's death..
and i still can't believe he's gone.
Bags me down, but i know God loves him more than anyone else does,
and i'm grateful for that.

My Azry, do take care of yourself ok..i don't want your life wasted.
Treasure it well, and most importantly, know that you have someone who cherishes you ALOT.

I am officially tired and worn out, one more hour before i have to idiotically go to work.
Sunday lunch, I HOPE IT WON'T GET BUSY.

If you're wondering why i haven't finsihed my episode of clubbing saga,
there's just too much to say and too little braincells to think about every detail.
So i just wanna sum it all up,
I HAD FUN.
and my thank yous to Souher and Afiq for making it a night, to remember..

Adios !