Afez sent me 2 videos online just now, which were videos of my party at Conrad.
Aw, i miss that night..i really do.

I really did have do much fun you know, especially when the girls were with me, it felt so right..

I bet Safwah's shocked to see her bf's name come first in this blog entry. HAHA.

Copy and paste onto new window, ok? Ok.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RKX74f6UOcc

This one's with me getting the cake ready.. (Note: Azean's name was mentioned. That was how much i wished she was there.)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=w7_gJf5cj4w

And this one's with me being so excited about turning 18. HAH!

Go check it out, people.

And the video quality ain't that bad you know, the room looked super nice (it was, ok.) in the clips. And yes, notice the view? aaaargh!





I was gonna kill the cake.

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That was the last day of my life then.
And i miss my life then.

I'm a new me, now.

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Not asleep at 3.11 am cos i miss my computer and what i can do with it.
It's been ages since i sorted out online files and clips, and i think tonite's a good nite cos im not as tired as ever.
The weekends spent at DB really zapped my energy.

And tmr im on off cos my Baby Azry wants to meet me and spend time with me before i go KL and fly off to Zurich consecutively.
And Nisa my girl, thanks alot for the advice, i'll take it in. Don't worry, i'll play my game well.
I don't wanna get hurt in the end.

Because i know, if anyone's to get hurt, it'll be me. So i won't let that happen, not for now.

Let me sidetrack.

2 days ago, Azry and Bam were at Changi beach slacking cos of the downpour. Usually, when it rains,they aren't allowed to patrol..so them being the hungry bastards that they are, requested me to send food to them.
So mum sent me there, and story cut short, she met him. Azry salam my mum, and they exchanged a word or two.

So i thought, hey, things arent that bad after all.

But but,

Mum didnt speak to me about it until just now.
Mind you, she just finished her prayers and she sat me down to tell me this ;

Mum: Meer, come here.
Me: Yes?

Mum: Are you serious with Azry?
Me: (Obviously shocked) Not really.. we're just dating. Why?

Mum: Don't give in, not this time around, ok? Mak don't see good.
Me: What u mean?

Mum: I don't know why, but i have a hunch when i see him.
Me: You do, huh? so it's bad?

Mum: i can't explain it, but Mak feels that he's too smart.
Me: As in..? cynical-cunning kinda smart?

Mum: Not cynical-cunning, nothing bad, just that he's too smart for you. I can't really figure it all out, but just know that i have a hunch.
Me: That's sad..

Mum: Meer, don't think you're so matured ok. You're still my baby.
Me: (Smiling and realising) Thanks Mak.

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You see? That's not good, you know. All this hunching. Maybe cos it's the first time im actually seriously dating a guy 11 years older than me. Maybe the parentals are just freaked out? you tell me.
And when i told Dad of the conversation, he agreed with Mum.
He said there's something mysterious about Azry. About how everything's coming about between me and him.
He just cant figure this bugger out.
Dad feels that Azry's gonna be another heartbreaker.
And he's telling me that this whole ride needs time.
LOTS OF IT.

And im telling him, and myself, relax.
I got it.
I know my game, thank you.

I can't help but agreeing to my parents. For once, im trusting my mother on this. I wanna see what's about to unfold.
If time is what i have, i'll use it.
It's sad that this is how Azry crosses to my parents, and i can't help but think twice about him.

But on the contrary, i know him to be a simple-minded guy. So simple, sometimes us complexed people cant understand him.
I never said he was a good person, you know.
He never was.
I just like his guts.
That's what made me attracted.
His guts, his philosophy on life.

We're 2 different people, i tell ya.

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Oh whack, what a day.
And i feel like i'm murdering myself.

Gotta go get the rest that i need.

Goodnite, Gee.