Happy National Day everyone.

I just woke up from a massive hangover.

What a night to remember,
my DAD saw me puking my guts out while i was drunk last night.

How classy.Goodness.

Rina and i went to insomnia, where i already planned on getting (note: JUST) high.
and so Amri, the ever so berguna bartender Insomnia had, just had to give me his kao-kao Long Island tea.
Pukiwak!
that thing tastes like shit!!

i swear, im never gonna have one of those anymore.

Belif me, by my 4th sip, i was tipsy already.
Rabak dok, that was how strong it was.

And Rina was high on her martini, but not as bad as i was.
I was tipsy - didn't know what i was doing, gay,happy to see everyone, started talking nonsense.
So inevitably, i wasn't sober at all.

And Azry was there, working.
Just to add to my misery,
he was VERY ULTIMATELY UPMOSTLY unhappy with the fact that i was high.

Mira : *Smiling like a jackass
Azry : Why must you get high? Ah? Why?
Mira : What...?it's national day! woohooo!!
Azry : No, answer me properly. Why must you get high?
Mira : Darling, i'm having fun, don't worry. Why do you care anyways?
Azry : I'm working lah.. you know anot, it's tough. Jeffry dah balek tau. im all alone, i have to handle the crowd.
Mira : Ok, handle lah, im doing my own thing what.
Azry : You don't get drunk, don't get wasted. Infront of your father some more.
I'm watching you.

##

He was at my ass the entire night.
I was busy shaking my ass on the dancefloor, and he'll actually watch over like a hyiena.
And the second time i wanted to get into the dancefloor, he told Rina to bring me out.
WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH YOU?!?!?

He was so damn pissed.
I remember coyingly flirting with him, just to irritate him more.HAHA.
I was licking his goatee and he was saying "I'm working.".
Hahah.
I can't belif i had the guts to do that.
Maybe cos i was so high, i didn't really care..
But i didn't trouble him u know,
i kept myself pumping,
and Rina and i were having fun.
SO? whats the big deal,papi?

And when i left the place,
i came by to say goodbye.

Mira: Bye sayang, im off to Cube.
Azry: No, you're not ok. you better go home.
Mira: Huh? im fine lah..(obviously in denial)
Azry: Why must you get so high?
Mira: Why do you care? Huh? Why? should u care?
Azry: I'm working tau..and u keep asking me this question..
Mira: Answer me lah..
Azry: Stop shouting at me.
Mira: Im nt shouting at you. answer me la..
Azry: We'll talk about this when ur sober k.
Take care.

##

He was angry.

And this is the first time, i truly feel bad for being tipsy with my man knowing.
Previously, when i was with Wan, when i used to get drunk almost everyweek,
i didn't care to hoots about wat he said.
I never cared about what he felt with me being drunk.

But for Azry,i feel so bad.
I don't regret, not yet.
But i must admit i was quite childish in a sense.
but fucking hell i was high!

so the rest of the night was spent puking at central mall, infront of Cube.
Tak sempat ke sane siak. aku dah mabok.
I didnt even make it to the entrance.
My most sincere apology to Rina for enduring my most fucked up moment.

i couldnt remember anything else,
dad helping me home.
and it was the first time,
i crashed without bathing.
ew ew ew.

and when i awoke just now,
i asked dad whether azry called him or whatsoever.
--

Dad: You screwed up again. You made him pissed.
Mira: I did?

Dad: Of course lah..!
Mira: But why, why should he get pissed? i don't get it.

Dad: Eh bodoh.. you still dont get it? after him telling you that he's spent 2 wonderful months with you and calls you darling, you still don't get it?
Mira: But he never tells me anything. I don't get his picture!

Dad: Men like these don't have to say anything..they mean what they feel cos it's in their heart.
They don't show it thru saying, they feel..and they feel it in here. *point to the heart.
Mira:I still don't get it. I don't think he has feelings for me.

Dad: Meer, Azry loves you. I see that. And he doesn't tell it, he shows it, and you're too blind to see the good in that, all you care for is yourself..
just convince him that last night was ur first, and definitely last.

Mira: ....Azry.I'm so sorry.

##

And i sms-ed him twice in the afternoon, but he didn't reply.
It's a bad sign, i suppose.
But i know my darling, he won't judge me like that.
If he says he wants to talk about it, ok then.. we shall.
talk about what again?
oh, about the question i kept popping up ;
Why do you care.

hmmm..
i'm just too tired to think.
i'll just break my own heart.
I love that idiot, and with that, comes a lifetime of challenges.

-_-