I am purchasing a few items through the net ;
and i think i'm gonna settle for this one -



Aren't they pretty??!!
Precious Grey Pearls with Swarovski Crystals set in Rhodium by Emma Page.

oh my gawd, i am suddenly in love with jewellery.
My new addiction,
to take my mind off things.

Things like work,
stress at work,
chaos at work,
and work itself.

But i LOVE work, don't get me wrong ok.
Just that at this age,
i'm so not used to being a workaholic.
But it is eventually my time to be one,
at the moment that is..

Anyways,
my sudden 'expensive taste' addiction also
comes with other reasons as well.
To take my mind off Azry..

Not that anything bad's happened,
just that i really do..feel.. lonely.
i feel like shit sometimes,
but he lives in me.
thinking of him, brightens up my day again..
just the mere thought of him.

I know that all this wait,
will end up good one day.
It's not high hopes,
but it's a goal i've instilled in myself.

And i am inarguably single you know.
So my point is,
why not splurge on little things to make myself feel
and look good?
I've never had this before,
the sudden interest in jewellery..
u name it,
gold, silver, nikel, gold-plated rhodium,
cubic zirconias..
So it's all good.

And single life isn't merely about party (sex,booze,ganja,music) you know,
and if there's anything i've learnt out of my singlehood so far,
and out of having Azry in my life,
it's that exact same sentiment.

Life's not a party.
Life is life itself, and i've gotta learn to settle down.
And collect myself.

I suddenly feel like i've grown up ten years throughout this whole year
that's gonna come to an end soon.
It's gonna be September already!!
My goodness,
time just flew past me.
And my life has catapulted amazingly in this year.
It's a good year to be remembered ; to be cherished.
But life goes on, ain't it?

And why is Mira being oh so philosophical on you tonight?
That's cos she's just feeling really, really deep.

After what i went through today,
i can't help but think about him.
Visited the Subordinate Court early in the morning (note : 8 AM)
to attend his court hearing.
And when we heard of his pending charges,
i shudder to think how my friend would go through what i've seen
a friend go through.

All that law,
all those lawyers..
and the departure of a person from our lives momentarily,

And to him whom i've not seen since i turned 17 last year,
i miss you my dear friend.
And i've come close to witnessing what the woman in your life
is experiencing.
Utter pain and loss.
The law stole you from us,
and it is unbearable.

So for those kids who think you can meddle with the law,
don't waste your mothers' tears please.
It's not worth every ounce of thrill,
seeing those drops of tears running down her face.

And i am gonna cut short here,
i am very very sleepy.
Had a long day lah.
Goodnight.

I grew up and left you behind..