This may sound crazy, but..

I WANT A MEHNDI NIGHT.
AND,
i want Saheli Bridal to do it for me.
The Mehndi designs are amazing.
And the prices aren't that bad.

Hmph.

Anyways, who's Sky and For You huh?
BITCHES.
Mind your own fucking business please.
I think i know who you are,
and that's all you'll ever keep saying right?
FUCK OFF.
Thank you.

It's 3.19 in the morning on a Wednesday,
and i have just ended a three-hour long conversation with my
boyfriend.

And what do i have to say to that?

I AM IN LOVE WITH AZMAN.

I seriously, honestly,most definitely,
adore him.

I think we have clocked our ten-thousand-word-Quota just within this week.
That shows we just can't stop talking!
Communication is very important, people.

And i am glad to announce that finally,
i have met a man who's intellectually compatible to me.

I can't wait for future plans ahead..

##

On the contrary,
i just want to add that i pity some people.
I really do.
At such an age, they still haven't had a grip on life.
Note : Cherish your life while you're still young
and not salvage it entirely on morally-damaging habits.
Because it is undeniable that who you are today,
is who you're gonna be when you're old.
So prepare yourself well while you still have youth and strength.
OK?
ok.

##

I am glad i have found my Salvation.

Was bored on a blistery Tuesday and guess what i decided to do?
I decided to compile my baby pictures into an album.
And i enjoyed doing it with myself.

Best part is, i got to upload the pictures onto my computer.
That way, i'll be able to share with you Baby Mira.

=)

I swear, i had nothing better to do.
Oh well i did lah, like cleaning up the room and rearranging the bed.
And calling my Drama King.

By the way,
Azman and i are more than in love,
we're head over heels with each other.
And i have never been better.

so...
HAPPY VIEWING.


All smiles for Baby Mira now.


At one month old ONLY. So fierce.


Baby Mira and her late Gramma. I miss you Nek. Oh this
was my mother's mother btw.


Dad and Baby Mira. See the paternal love oozing? Don't i look like him?


I sleep in this position all through my life, even until now.


Syiok nyer! Baby Mira getting a bath.


Ummi and I.


Baby Mira staring at her mother, being patted dry affectionately.


No shame! can see buttock!


I think i was a little bit irritated in that thing.


My first ever Dollar.


Motherly Love.


YOU DIG?!


I was very playful back then, that's why my parents aged faster.



Told you so.


And i'd make noise if i didn't like something.


My very first steps.


My most favourite shot. I'm all natural. =)


In the wheely-wheely thingy.


My Beyonce Pose.


The reason why i'm Assy now is because i used to bum around alot.


I smiled alot, too. And the smile hasn't changed one bit.

So there you go..
my Baby pics compilation.
I wanna show Azman this one.

And last night changed my life cos for the first time after
a LONG time,
i have a sense of direction in life.
I have a goal,
and i am never more sure of it.

I thank God Azman's in my life.
He's the man i've always dreamt of having.
I'm starting to fall in love and grow into him.
Insyallah, this will last.

On the contrary,
i wanna add something.
Remember in my previous entries about Azry,
when i said i've always dreamt of loving someone this way,
and that the end for me and Azry would be sweet,

I think i've found my answers to that.

Azman.

I didn't say i dreamt of loving Azry that way,
i never said that the end for me and Azry would be sweet with
Azry in it,
i only said the end.
I wasn't specific.
And now it's all coming back to me again
and i have been making realisations, one after another.
I'm growing up again,
and i am happy that my mother is fully aware of that too..

For once in my life,
the decision i made last night,
was the most righteous.
And that my mother has never been happier,
seeing me step into another dimension in life,
with the grace of an adult.

And with the intention of settling down, comes many other obstacles.
Azman, take this ride with me.
You've given me confidence like never before.
I am in love with us.

Selamat berbuka puasa to all,
another day just flew by.
Toodles.

ps: Mum saw Azman's pic and he says we look alike. woohoo!

And so i have started, the first few days of
my girlfriend life.
Of course, it would take me quite some time
to adjust to the whole commitment and attachement thingy,
but i will surely grow into it.

All i need is time.

I had great fun just now,
and outing i've never experienced before.
Meeting up with my loves,
Nisa and Harry,
and having dinner and a chat session with them.
My goodness,it was a whole new experience for me..

I've never felt this way before,
i feel so..
..appreciated.

I took photos,too!
yayness.
And in your face NURUL!!!
HAHAHAHAHA.
still can't believe i have a loving and wonderful boyfriend?

WATCH AND LEARN.



In my Dad's ride being narcassistic once in awhile.


Dad and I.

We headed down to Far East Square to catch the auditions of
Asian Beats 2006, where my Glitchy Boys were performing.


Dad all cuckoo at the Mr. Teh Tarik Cafe at Far East Square.


Look at the helpless suji already devoured by my gumless DAD.
And that's some real kick-ass Teh Tarik!

So after the teh tarik session, we headed down to meet my Baby Azman,
and Dad and him finally met.
So it was all good, and awkward at the same time.
With my ex-bf Izwan being around, i felt quite tensed being
in the audition hall.
So right after which,
i introduced the ex-boyfriend to the current one,
and i swear i think the ex was quite disappointed.
Cos i've moved on and he hasn't kinda thing you know.
OH WELLS.

Baby and i headed down to town, where we made plans to meet up with
Nisa and Harry for dinner at Nana Thai.
Sucky place i must say, but a great time spent with my lovelies.

And...behold.
The most amazing thing in my life right now..
Azman-Mira.


Our first ever couple shot taken on the 23rd of September.
Woohoo!


All smiles now for Mira.


Nisa and Harry at Nana Thai. Harry looks good in this one, agree?


My finished plate of Hokkien Mee and it was the first time Azman and i went dutch.
Good, practice. Hmph.


Cliched couple shot,NOT. I love this bugger already.

Then we headed down to McD's at PS to have our regular smoking/chatting session.
Something i have been deprived of for months!
We had interesting mature/adult conversations back to back,
about staying loyal and being committed and on Azman and I got
interrogated on how we actually met.
But i must say we handled the pressure well, and we were honest so yay.

And Azman and my friends get along super well, he's somewhat alike to Harry.
So it's all good!


The guys heavily involved in a conversation pertaining women.
Hmm..go figure.


A quick peek.


Pakcik couldn't stop talking, and i really found that amusing.
It's good, atleast i know he's comfortable with Azman around.
=)


And us being ladies, didn't spare cam-whoring a chance.
HEH.


While our splendid men rattled on... we made ourselves feel pretty gorgeous.

And so time came for us to part..
and Azman and i took public transport home,
which is also a first.
that's how much he's been spoiling me all this while,
paying for my meals..
paying for the cab fare..
Now i'm the boss who's gonna teach him how to be rugged and stinge.
He should feel lucky that i am a man somehow,too.
HAHAH.

So before we bid each other farewell,
we took our last shot for the night,
to end it with class.

.....


Yes, and this is the last shot, evidently showing how much taller he is from me.
Not much, but comfortably taller.

##

I enjoyed my day, thank you Nisa and Harry for making my day.
We all came clean about our lives so far,
and they gave Azman an even deeper insight on myself.
On how he shouldn't let me speak to any managers in a restaurant while having dinner
even if the food arrives late,
on how i have had issues with punching people,
on how independent i can be at time,
and how i can handle my shit well.

They also kept reminding Azman of how protective they are over me
and that happiness for me is utmost important to them.
And they're telling me Azman's a good catch and for keeps,
and i shall quote from Nisa saying that he's also one in a million.

*wide smile*

Alhamdulillah is all i can say, i pray our relationship will cross boundaries like
never before..
AND NURUL, NOW YOU DIG?!
hahah.

We shall all meet together someday.
For now, i'll let this wonderful man guide me along the way.

Off to bed and dreams,
waking up for Sahur later in the early morning.

Oh my, Ramadhan is finally here,
and i feel warm at heart.

To all, let's embark this journey of Ramadhan with great patience.
Wasalam.

Let's do it proper, Mami.

On the 20th of September,
Safrina turned 18.

And we spent the day together,
lunch at Magic Wok..
and a seabreeze session at the Waterfront.

The same thing we did last year,
and let's just say both of us have changed alot
in terms of physical attributes over the past one year..

Let the photos speak for themselves, shall we?















See? See?

Oh my, what can i say..
WE'VE ALL GROWN UP.
Into hot, bootylicious,bombastico women
who won't let anyone down especially themselves..

##

Safrina my darling,
let go..
The way i did,
you should do it too..
You'll feel much,much better.
I assure you.
Stand strong my dear.
I'll see you through..

I LOVE YOU CHOMBHI.
Happy Eighteenth once again.



Goodnight,folks!

##

ps: And i received positive remarks about my Baby.
Woohoo!
*in glee*

After 9 long months..
After much heartache,
After a winding emotional rollercoaster ride,
After all the waiting and yearning,

MIRA IS FINALLY ATTACHED!!!

*prances around like a maniac*

And for once,
i'm happy that i am.

The Azry Episode is finally, and sadly...over.
And it has thought me alot of valuable lessons in life.
Azry was a mistake,
but like i said once, i'll say it again.
I'll never hate him.
I've learnt to accept it in my stride.

I thank Azry for being a part of me all this while,
but we're not meant to be.
Simple as that.
I love him, but he can't say the same for me.

It's alright, i'm moving on.
Well,with that.

I am someone else's girlfriend for now.
And this is the break i've been waiting all this while.
All my life.
Someone i can call my own eversince Aqil.
Someone who appreciates me and takes good care of me.
Most importantly,
someone who's devoted to me.

His name, is Azman.
And i don't want to disclose where and how and when he came into my life.
Not that i'm embarrassed of it or anything,
let's just say i don't find it necessary.
Let's not judge him by the way we met.

Let's not judge him at all.

Take it from me,
i'm happy,
and i am finally sure and certain of things.
He's devoted, and so am i.

We shall see this journey through together.
I am not in love with him as yet,
im just inching my way up.

Nor Azman B. Hussain Sahib Marican.
27, with a high-flying career.
Family-oriented and ambitious.
But above all that,
he's husband material,
NO JOKE.

##



Azman Baby, let's ride.

Tomoro night is the last night of nightlife saga for me
before i embark on my religious journey of Ramadhan.

So Ladies Night, here i come!!!

Planning to go O Bar and then proceed onto Devil's Bar with none other
than my old-time friend, a friend i've known eversince i was
dating Syawal. His name, is Iqbal.

I've known him eversince i was 14 for goodness' sake.

And our agenda for tmr?

TO KUTOK ALL THE MAT2 AND MINAH2 AND THE CINONEHs
we could find in a club.

A club such as O Bar and Devil's ?
I'm sure we can have a tummy-cracking good time.
And Iqbal's a nutcase, so it's all good.

YAY YAY!
*prancing around like a maniac*

Spend all your time waiting for that second chance
For the break that will make it okay
There's always some reason to feel not good enough
And it's hard at the end of the day

I need some distraction Oh Beautiful Release
Memories seep from my veins
They may be empty and weightless and maybe
I'll find some peace tonight

In the arms of an Angel
Fly away from here
From this dark, cold hotel room
and the endlessness that you fear
You are pulled from the wreckage of your silent reverie
You're in the arms of an Angel, may you find some comfort here

So tired of the straight line everywhere you turn
There's vultures and thieves at your back
The storm keeps on twisting, you keep on building the lies
That you make up for all that you lack
It don't make no difference,escaping one last time
It's easier to believe
In this sweet madness, oh this glorious sadness
That brings me to my knees



Azry, I am your Angel.
Come to me, may you seek comfort here..

Just woke up to the sounds of Teriyaki Boys.
Saturday night was spent clubbing,
and i must admit,
i've been clubbing alot these past few weeks.

With or without cash.
HAHAH.

I can't explain my sudden surge of clubbing sagas.
And i don't think i need to explain, either.

Started off late.
By 1, i was at Insomnia..
Sat by the bar with Ed the friendly neigbourhood bartender.
Diy and i were talking about stuff,
the usual girlfriend talk.

And so i met Jefry, such a pleasant surprise for him to be
around.
Was speaking to Diy, about how i need someone to tell me to let go,
to stop, to forget.

And as i was about to leave for MOS,
i did the most remarkable thing ever.
I came up to Jefry ;

Mira : Jefry, tell me in my face ; should i stay or leave.
Jefry : (Wide-eyed) Huh? nak balik? stay lah!
Mira : No lah! not about here..! i meant Azry..
Jefry : Oh. Chey. Haha. Ok, you see ah Mira..
Mira : Let's step aside and talk, please?

And so we begun talking.. and in my face, he tells me NOT to leave.
"Stand by his side.. he needs you."
"His is a chaotic state of mind.. die takder confidence, tu jer. Like i said,
bring him out..ECP or something.. make him feel comfortable, then let
him open up to you.."
"Azry and me are the best of brothers,ya. He and i, we know each other's shit.
We don't cover up for each other ya."
"And about those things you heard about him having a gf or
other women or that he fucks around behind your back..
or die kirakan main2 kan you, up to you to believe."
"But Mira, this, i give you my word. If ever you or i find out
that he's been doing shit behind your back,
i will bash him up.
I will bash him up so bad, he won't be able to stand.
And i'll bash him up infront of your eyes."

Speechless.
I am just at a loss of words.
Jefry really thinks that i am the one for Azry.
Cos he's never seen anyone do things for Azry the way i did.
The way i catered for Azry.
Azry had a bad experience in his previous love life,
and maybe that's why he's afraid now.
Now that something real has entered his life,
someone in love with him.
Like they said,
once bitten, twice shy.

So i've decided to let time take it's course.
And just stand by him.
It won't take overnight,
it will take a long time..
But i want to wait.
Cos i don't want anyone else..
i want you,Azry.

It's true what they say la..
once you dah nekhad dalam hati untuk sesuatu,
susah nak goyah.

##

The rest of the night was spent at MOS,
where i met this guy by the name of Azman.
27, good-looking,
successful, a true gentleman,
mature,
relatable,
sweet,
and is NOT a malay.
But, i am not keeping my options open.
I'm just killing time.
We're catching a movie and a karaoke session later..
and dropping by Insomnia for awhile.
My intention isn't to cause gigantic trauma waves to Azry,
just to chill out.
Besides,
i am a regular there, no?

So we'll see how.
I'll introduce the two.

I'm lazy to go into the details of last night.
But let's just say i got lucky (again) and so did my ladies.
Nana, Dewi,Diy and I just rock the floor don't we?
Hahah.
pure madness.

i gotta go..
i'm bored.
and i have a date to dress up to.

and i have to insert this...
.....
.......
........
...MOS SUCKS!!!#@$!@#%@$^@



I may seem fine,
i may seem happy and contented,
but my heart's with you at every end of the day..
I love you Teddy Bear.

I tried forgetting and moving on.
I tried my level best to forget,
to take that the past three months were nothing.
Like as if it didn't happen.
I tried telling and convincing myself over and over again that
it was just another ordinary friendship,
hassle free.

I tried keeping my mind occupied,
i tried not to think about him.
But he's always on my mind.
From the moment i wake up till
the second i close my eyes.

Am i too young for all this?

Am i to deserve better than this?

I tried,
again and agian.
But i failed.
I'm in denial.
I love him.
Seeing his photo,
kills me.
Slashes me.

I never wanted to be this hurt.
I never thought that the person
i spent time with at ECP on the morning of 7th June
could hurt me this bad.
I am left heartbroken.

I never thought i'd love you this much,
after all that i've gone through.
It brings me to the realisation
that amidst all this hurt,
i am in need.
I am in need to feel loved and treasured.

After Aqil,
i never fell in love with anyone else.
But with you,
i feel alive.
Like a different kind of woman.
My life changed.
My whole mindset on life changed the moment
i knew you.
The moment you touched me deep.

Tonight,
is the first night since Aqil
that i cried so bad.
At the same spot i prayed.
Prayed for strength to go through my loss.
Tonight,
is the first night since Aqil
that i felt so much hurt.
That i felt so crushed.

Jangan pisahkan..
aku dan dia..
Tuhan tolonglah..
ku cinta dia..
Biar lah kami..
Tetap bersama..
Di dalam suka dan duka..

Muhammad Nor Azri,
i love you.



For the next few days,
just leave me alone.
I need myself the most now.

Been partying hard this week, but i've been a good girl.
=)

Saturday night party with Dewi and Nana just rocks.
A wonderful end to my turbulent week.

First off was our regular Insomniac session at Insomnia,
where things were different between me and Azry.
Reason being i sent him an sms earlier on the day about how i feel
towards his rejection of me being in love with him.

"To tell me that it's not worth loving you,
i don't know what to say to that. Kinda ticked me off.
But listen here,
i've loved you and you're the best thing that's happened to me
and i'm grateful for that.
I don't and i won't regret cos everything that happened
is a lesson learnt. I never thought i'd love you, no way in hell.
I don't expect from you Azry, i want you to know that.
You're great the way you are,
but we don't always get the ones we love.
I love you Azry, goodbye."

Aw man. Farewell messages are always sad and
heartbreaking.
But it has to be done.
For my own good,
i don't want to repeat past mistakes.
And i believe,
i deserve better.

I thought i could've won an award for that one.
HAHAH.

ah fuck.
i'm not pretending to be happy.
in actual fact, i am.
happy and glad that he's given me a reason to let go..
and move on in life..
and live life without a man.
for once, after a long time,
i feel alone and on my own again.

But heck,
i am single, available, fun, sexy and above all HOT AS HELL.
so i can have my lucky days too.

Insomnia, MOS, Devil's was poompa man.
MOS was so fun!
haha.
Got to know this shy guy name Khai who looks
so chinese.
Ubber cuteness,
the cutest among all his other friends..
but he's SHORT!
and TINY!
but oh well,
he was cute..
and i truly enjoyed Dewi's and Nana's attempts on
making him feel fucking paiseh and embarrased.
HAHA.
everytime i grinded him,
they'd grind him too.
making him look squeezed and squashed.
HAHAH.
and everytime i backed off,
he'd pull me and hug me,
wah kirakan im his girl lah.
HAHAHAHAHAHA!

Shy Guys have always been appealing to me.

I gotta go people,
and tmr's my first day at Le Baroque.
Can someone help me?
I don't know how to pronounce the place's name.
Darn it.
Kene kacau ngan Zaini cos i pronounced it as
'Lay Bah-raw-qi'
correct what, right?

hmph.
-_-

Wednesday night was the bestest Ladies Night ever!!
I was scampering around like a mighty clown.

Diy and i started our 'escapade' at Insomnia,
where Azry granted us exclusively free entry into the club.
Got plastered had fun,
made frens with some cabin crew guys from
Emirates..

They got friendly with us,
which made Azry's blood boil.

And by 2 am, we started our journey
in search of pure Ladies' fun.
Headed down to DBL O and O Bar where
we met my fellow pepek, Julie.

Julz was happy and so were we..
Jon (the cabin crew guy from Emirates) got us a
jug of Redbull V and we only took a sip,
to which we ran to Cheekys to get even more plastered.

Met our kampong buddies there,
yes like duhhh cos that's our playground.
And at 3 am,
we headed back to DBL O.
Met Wandy, one of the bouncers working at DBL O.
promised to meet at Devils later on,
and i made friends with a couple other bouncers and got lucky.
*winks*

It's surprising how i managed to be so energetic to
have so much fun in an hour.
To squeeze our schedule for the night for so many clubs and
to meet so many people,
to digest all kinds of things.

And so after DBL O came MOS,
where i met Khalid,
another ex-Samar staff.
Grind him till he couldn't take it, and left him
begging for more..
hahah.
it was fun teasing him.
"Maut ah kau Mira..aku cannot take it sia."
Balls! Take it Indian style!
hahaha..

Ok and then MOS was boring,
so eventually and surely,
we ended up at Devils.
Where i met sooo manyyy people.
Namely Nyot.
Yes, Azry's long lost Ayang.
Another jug passed,
another jug retrieved.

Diy and i were lucky that night.

And the night was signature,
after i met my Papi.
HEH.

We played eyes..
tapped our frequencies,
and after a long wait,
he swooped in for the catch.
Towards the end of Hamid's set,
he swooped in from behind me,
and places his hands on my hips.
I'm his catch.

His name is Husen,
and he's as sexy as lingerie.
Honestly,
i knew i wanted him.

"What took you so long?"
He was taken aback by my outright question.
But hey,
i was teasing him all night long..
and he found that sexy as hell.
Hahah.
i swear, i was lucky that night.
I felt liberated.

Azry, im sorry but i was having fun.
That's all.
At the end of the night/day,
i still love you.
But hell,
it ain't gonna happen, no?

Mira : "Azry sayang, i love you"
Azry : "Don't fall in love with me. It's not worth it, but i really
appreciate it."

So much for my confession and surpressed feelings.
All that came to this?
why thank you, God bless you.
If you think it's not worth loving you,
think again.
You're the best thing that's happened to me.
And i will never forget.
But why,
the heartbreak?
yes.. it was inevitable.
I was gonna get hurt in the end.
I am at the losing end.

It's funny how one sms could alter me for the rest of my life.
I seriously loved him.
Though i had my fun on wednesday night,
i fell back to him in the end.
And him being pissed and entirely shocked that
i came home in the evening on Thursday (go figure),
gives me the impression that he cares alot.
And may i ask,
what's underneath the care?

I never asked how he felt towards me.
Cos i thought he'd never be able to come clean with me.
So now that i have said those three words,
he tells me it's not worth it,
loving him.
I don't understand, why not?

##

On a better note,
i enjoyed the past 2 nights spent with my Safrina.
I love you darl.
Be strong ok.

And i landed a job at Le Baroque, Chijmes.
YES OF ALL PLACES.
Right next to Insomnia.
We'll see how this one goes.
Working hours are from 6pm to 4am.
So now Mira is in the nightlife,
at least that would stop me from clubbing too much.
My latenights are officially at work.

The winds of change have blown,
i have to take it in.

It's another Wednesday night.

And..

I'm going clubbing.
I wanna get plastered at Insomnia,
and then proceed to wherever.

MOS and Gotham seem fine,
but they playing House music.
Julie invited me to O Bar,
i haven't been there, so see how.
And Le Baroque seems just nice,
at Chijmes too.
So save on transport.
But but but..

The traditional Cheekys/DB routine
seems enticing.
Oh i don't know.
I had fun last week at DB,
dunno if the usual bunch of guys will be there
to entertain me again..

And you know what,
after so long..
i'm staying home to reserve my energy for the night.
And and and.
I dunno what to wear!
Balls, this is fun.

I've been needing destressing.
For tonight,
i shall destress in this way.

On other days, some other ways.

So long!

Hey all,
these are the clips from the previous hooray-hooray Saga
i had with the bunch of crazy people
whom i've stuck around with for all my life.

Thanks for the night ya'll.
I was full like a bull by the end of it,
and thank you my dear Hairul for the photos..


Nice pic huh? I like.
This was after dinner.


My sweet Mul


Safrina jual mahal. Jangan malu2, nanti kene jual baru tau.


Candid shot.Upclose some more!


Handsome sia this guy.
;p


BLUR COCK.


The three of us, so big already. Masyallah.


Them, so slenger.


Them, mighty fine.


4F girls. Where's Safwah and Karuna?!?!?


Goodfriends. I love you babe.


Never thought we could take photo together. Hah.





My new found love.


Sick to the pit people.


Ahmad and Fahmi.
The Bullee and the Bully.


Rina's shisha pose.


My shisha pose.


Pre-group photo #1.


Pre-group photo #2.


And... the group photo itself. Yayness!


Another one of those photos you'll go *sigh*..


Boy's corner.


Girl's corner.


A VERY FUNNY PIC.
i crack myself up seeing the look on Rina's face.
Hahahah!


We them class clowns!





A very nice pic.


My handsome hero terbakar.


Her handsome hero montel.


Hairul : Girl, you got Tequila?
Mira : You damn straight i do!


He's seen me at my worst, too.

And the most riveting, award-winning,blasphemous, flabbergasting,jaw-breaking,
freakiest picture of all night would be..
..this one.



AHMAD ON SHISHA!
smoke 'em buai!
Aku tunjuk Mak kau ni gambar mampos kau kene pancong!

Whatever is it,
i enjoyed my night with you guys.
Never regret not one bit,
and it was an off-day spent worthwhile.

I LOVE YOU GUYS!
Big hug!

And now i am tired from all that updating.
I hope u enjoyed viewing them.
The reason why my captions aren't fantastic is cos it's 2 in the morning.
And next gathering,
we all having seafood ok?

Yay yay.

Gooznait people.