I tried forgetting and moving on.
I tried my level best to forget,
to take that the past three months were nothing.
Like as if it didn't happen.
I tried telling and convincing myself over and over again that
it was just another ordinary friendship,
hassle free.

I tried keeping my mind occupied,
i tried not to think about him.
But he's always on my mind.
From the moment i wake up till
the second i close my eyes.

Am i too young for all this?

Am i to deserve better than this?

I tried,
again and agian.
But i failed.
I'm in denial.
I love him.
Seeing his photo,
kills me.
Slashes me.

I never wanted to be this hurt.
I never thought that the person
i spent time with at ECP on the morning of 7th June
could hurt me this bad.
I am left heartbroken.

I never thought i'd love you this much,
after all that i've gone through.
It brings me to the realisation
that amidst all this hurt,
i am in need.
I am in need to feel loved and treasured.

After Aqil,
i never fell in love with anyone else.
But with you,
i feel alive.
Like a different kind of woman.
My life changed.
My whole mindset on life changed the moment
i knew you.
The moment you touched me deep.

Tonight,
is the first night since Aqil
that i cried so bad.
At the same spot i prayed.
Prayed for strength to go through my loss.
Tonight,
is the first night since Aqil
that i felt so much hurt.
That i felt so crushed.

Jangan pisahkan..
aku dan dia..
Tuhan tolonglah..
ku cinta dia..
Biar lah kami..
Tetap bersama..
Di dalam suka dan duka..

Muhammad Nor Azri,
i love you.



For the next few days,
just leave me alone.
I need myself the most now.