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Tuesday, April 03, 2007
badal mein
6:42 AM This is for a loved one. This feeling, what is it? It's not a state of confusion anymore, that i know. My heart feels heavy thinking about us. About what we were, how we were and where we will be going.. This time around, i feel like it's time for me to finally take my flight. I feel it weakening, this love i have for you. I understand you. I do.. even when a part of me lacks it, i always reassure myself and understand you. I've been very comprimising.. very patient and tolerant. But somehow i feel like it's not right doing this.. loving you, it's not right. It's against a certain kind of energy. I don't know why i suddenly feel this sudden change. It's so sudden, really. It's like half of my heart has become a brick ; i have no affections anymore. Don't know why i'm saying this but i'll miss you. I think finally... it's best for me to leave. Leave you, leave us for good. Whatever structure we've built for the past three weeks or so.. i leave it to you. The ball's in your court. Do whatever you want with it.. cos i finally can't be bothered. Not that i don't see it as worth it, just that i think i need to take a break. A forever break from you. Ali Baba, i need you to let go. Please don't say that you love me. Love isn't everything. Yes - it's a strong element, a strong force driving the both of us - but it doesn't bring us to the end of the day. Ali Baba, i need you to free me a happy woman, bless me with this freedom. Erase all the memories and happiness. Leave me with the sorrow so that i can learn from it and in hope shape up my life if you really are the fulcrum of it. It gets tough when there's feelings involved eh. Shitness siak. |
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