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Monday, January 29, 2007
In you, I see.
11:13 PM Sitting here in my empty space As i silently recall your face In the brightest blue, Most beautiful hue I knew I'd forever love you When forever lasts Til the sun blasts I'll be standing by your side Tall or short, be overlooking with pride 'Cos in your eyes is where i see The most beautiful part of me Nonsense by Mira Abdullah. Friday, January 26, 2007
overdue.
11:13 PM The Newton Night. Diy was boss that night, and she treated us to a scrumptous seafood spread at Newton Hawker Centre. Soon after, we headed down to Momo for party.   Imran and I in the train on the way to Eunos to meet the ladies.  Check out his hair. And he's an NS dude ok.  Belle and me at newton.  Mira,Wany,Imran's hand,Diy.  Imran and Diy.  Bon Apetit!     The food. And so the night wore on.. and next thing we knew, we were at Momo. The night was wild. We had casualties at the end of the night. Watch.  Imran after three submarines.  Wany after a whole lot of alcohol. ## Wednesday afternoon at the Esplanade with Diy. Diy-leriously cam-whoring. Check this out.      HAH NGKAU.  Why hello.  Sampoerna on hot sunny afternoons are a killer.  It was scorching hot! Lucky thing we were in shade.  "You lost your mp3 pulak?!" And then there was this apek who had his pants sky high. OMG it was atrocious.  Hahak lepak siak. You know what? I've had it. Ran out of patience. Took forever to upload the pics. Will upload some more when my patience kicks in again. I'm tired, and sleepy. Gooznait. Sleep on THAT thought,please.
grateful.
9:07 AM See if your name appears. (Note: sequence of names is not by favour.) Mother Father Shaheerah Shafeeqah Safrina Wany Diy Mul Atikah Imran Ayul Rina Nisa Harry Izwan Boon Tat Epul Brian Crystal Yaslee Souher Redza Rezza Supi Nas Shakeel Hafriz (omg) Ajal All Jalan Tenaga Gang Haikeling Nadirah Gers Mandy Nas (ex-NAFA crush-OMG) Fishballs Fishcakes Serene Debbie Fahmi 4F Roman Fadhil Erlina Ema Aisyah Shahidah Nurul Syahidah Rashidah All Cik Nor's nieces & nephews Ifrah Firdaus (atikah's younger brother) Bee Bun Yong Ayul (mul's brother) Mul's mom Atikah's mom Safrina's mom Diy's mom Diy's brothers Syafiq Hashim Mr & Mrs Hashim Nyot Azri Lutfi Skye Izwan's cousins Naqiah Maressa Adib Hakim Kumar Aidil Raja Rizwan Sabri Ariff Sivam Dj Oli Dj Kzee Dj Shah Kris Apit Late Mapet Iyah Sabiq Hisham Irfana Kak Min Amboy Gulit Fazillah Suhail Syafi Sufiya Haseef Adib Nabil Saffiyah Mak Bibah Mak Etah Dedek Nadia Abg Man Kakak Emma Maminah All other paternal aunties & uncles Bayem Auntie Dadah Amat Kak Feezah Kak Siti Azman Arsyad Leandra Aunty Shidah Uncle Wan Annisa Nazim Razif Mummy Uncle Hussain Kak Sa'adah Alisha Francisco Shamin Shazia Niloufer Nadia Cheong Edroos Alsagoff Nitin Sady Abg Selamat Shah Raffi Ronny Ganesh Hilda Julie Dewi Rizal Haris Penang cousins & relatives Gee Farhan Firdaus Nabilah Imran's parents Aunty Aidah Suad Sadat Sameh The aunty at the salon at Ubi Bus 3 drivers Hema Narin Mimi Idah Adly I guess the list goes on? I'm trying to list down ALL the people in my life. Quite a thought you know. Anyways.... I'm loving every moment of my life because, you're in it. =) Wednesday, January 24, 2007
evermore.
6:45 AM Monday morning, hesitate. Can't get out of bed. Rather go back to the dreams. Of living in my head. Monday evening, pack my bags. I'm heading out the door. Left a box of memories, Lying on the floor. ## It's one of the rare wednesday nights where I'm home, so fresh so clean after a damn good shower. I'm feeling awfully happy that i'm home, in my room. Safe and sound. I want so many things right now. But... I'm just happy i'm here, at home. I think I'm pregnant. Been having a bull's apetite nowadays. Been hungry almost twentyfourseven. Had a blast at Esplanade just now. Met Ayul and Sup. Was nice, seeing you guys. I'm rather random right now. Wonder what's going on. Ah shiags...money matters. And i seriously need to clear up my room. I need IKEA. and i miss my Gee. a little bit. Leave me. Leave me alone, please. Get out of my head. I'm coming back up, just give me time. Tuesday, January 23, 2007
live n let live.
9:56 AM I am beginning to live again. For your sake, Ma. Saturday, January 20, 2007
a mistake.
8:39 PM I should have known better. AZMAN = MISTAKE what was i thinking? But oh well.. What's new right? But i'm glad i had Wan by my side the entire night.......... .......to be continued
kepala otak
7:51 AM Listening to Belaian Jiwa.. tipsy in my room. nzasihcg witgfyiqe97ry iwbrg u have NO IDEA how weird today is. parents arent around. funny i can still type well while im high. ok ah tipsy. but hell. i like this moment. while my best girl is talking on the fone about how her man loves surprising her. prolly the best man in all her life. i love you girl, without a doubt. she said i wanna photostat my pantat. and use azman's face to photostat as well. oh btw... prolly the best man in my life...is about to spend the night with me tonight.. I'm hurt. And i won't love anymore. But i am forever in love with you. Forever. Tuesday, January 16, 2007
chibai.
2:49 AM CHEEEEBYYYYYEEEE!!! Everything in my comp just when kapoof when Don sent me back my supposedly 'faulty' pc. Now everything's gone. And i mean everything! 2 years of photo collection.. A year's collection of songs on Limewire.. Now it's like as if i don't even kenal my pc anymore. Her skin's changed. Even her desktop is different. Aiya cheebye la. Btw my comp's name is Stacy McGoo. My viao's name is Marie V. though. Lagi glam. Ah cheebye la. heartache sia. All the pics!!! ALLL THEE PICSSS!!! all no more.....*sobbing uncontrollably* ## Met Gee. Had a blast. The dumta was awwwsummmm. Planned to give me a massage. Ended up heading him, with of course, no intentions from my side. And then he asked for it. He just HAD to ask for it. He couldn't resist it. ngyahhgdgqi bfowefqenfwjepf13r~##@^$!$!!!!! And so it was better than outdoor sex of course. HAHAHA. Haiz. "I'm sorry I can't help it. I'm a nicotine-driven, mass-hormonal nymphomatic female". And that came by with silence. Haha. You're so cute lah Gee. I wanna have you some more le!!! You're seriously delicious. And finally i've confessed to you how much i love your tool and how nice your tool is. My GAWD. i sounded so.....ew for awhile. Don't mind me. I was having a blast. So allow me to blast it all away here...... too di dum ti doo di dum ti doooooo I'm a bimbo who needs rest. Sunday, January 14, 2007
monday blues
9:21 PM Monday morning.. Monday blues.. Have a good week ahead ya'll. PS: WHERE IS NUR DIYANAH BTE ARIF. LIKE SO LONG LIKE THAT I NEVER SEE YOU. Saturday, January 13, 2007
at the seminar
8:16 PM Am at seminar . will blog later. much to say,so stay tuned. Friday, January 12, 2007
emo entry
8:19 AM This is going to be an emotional entry. So if emo isn't your thing, STOP READING. NOW. I just realised that..the need to have the companionship of an opposite sex is merely the work of our bloody hormones. Imagine, there are kids my age who don't even go out on dates. And why, oh why, am i not like them? Why do i open myself to this kind of world? Just to take in all the atrocities?....dont get me wrong..i aint complaining, just wondering. Then again...why oh why can't i ever meet a PROPER male? tell me? where the heck are you guys?!?! you proper males. proper in a sense ; nice. funny. cute. outgoing. earns a stable income. and downright genuine. The ones i've met are either... too stark, a bundle of lies, or just plainly weird. Then again im asking myself, DO I NEED A MALE? let me be really honest. yes. i need a male COMPANION. a pleautonic one would do just fine. I am not sexually hungry or whatsoever,ew no. it's just nice sometimes to have someone to talk to..someone to share your interests and thoughts with. someone who keeps in constant contact with you. so for those girlfriends of mine who have someone who's in constant contact with you, fret no more. please oh please feel grateful. atleast....you know someone out there thinks about you twentyfourseven. as for me, i have been very independent. sometimes, to have someone to contact, makes me irk. but after awhile, i get used to it..and when he's quiet, i start to worry. stupid, i know. im just born caring,fuck. i can go on days without keeping in touch with outside frens or date guys. as long as i have a shelter above my head, food to eat, water to drink and bathe, wany-diy-imran to talk to, and my family for support...I'M FINE. but does that make me happy? i don't know. weird. cos you never know what in the world makes you entirely happy. and believe me,happiness comes to those who choose to be happy. and fuck, happiness is just an estatic moment, awaiting to be overwhelmed by another ounce of displeasure. my babes, that's reality. and it fucking bites to know that. i have a wonderful room now, one i can stay in and close the door to every single moment. yes, it's this kinda times that i feel that i need myself the most. lock myself up in the room...DON'T show me to the world. i think i've had enuf of it. these the kinda times i wished Wan was here by my side...watching me type this. i wished i still had Meerwan, no joke. i missed having a long-term relationship. tiring, but satisfying at every end of the day. looking back thru my secondary and tertiary school diary, i told myself "gosh...all these seem so far away...". i'm still so young...so consumed in what i want in life...have i ever wondered, what life wants out of me??? i was given a second chance at teenagehood, and what am i so far....?? but then again..life (at this stage) isn't about what i don't have and what i should be having or what i want to have... it's about what i have, what i have done and what i will be doing. it gets me messed up. taufik batisah's 'usah lepaskan' hits me bullseye. i have been like this, feeling all low-self-esteem about myself since the past few months.. since last year siak. it's like a fucking disease. i allowed myself to have this disease, big dissappointment to myself. boo mira boo!!! i gotta start living sia. like seriously. i'm beginning to be immune to heartbreak. like i can see it coming from a mile away. i dont give myself up so easily anymore. and you know what...i forgot that i once felt like a diva. for the life of me, yah, diva! ayo. so drama lah me sometimes. but oh wells. Gee, if you're reading this.. please don't go. i don't want you to go. you haven't finished telling me your stories.. and you havent shared enuf insight on National Geographic channel with me.. we have so much space left to cover.. too many words to exchange. Me and you are of the same bloody breed. the only difference is, you are Buddist and i am Muslim. I wanna see Bangkok with you.. and ride on your bike..(i just had to include that right.) and visit your temple... i want to see all your tattoos and draw them out.. i wanna play the saxophone with you, make a 2 piece duet.. and then i wanna spend a night star-gazing with you.. and at the end of the many years... i still want to be your friend. just, your friend. maybe i miss alot of people but i don't know how to confess it to them. maybe i miss alot of people for the rightest and wrongest reasons. but heck, i miss people... i wonder if people miss me too. there you go. Mira for 2007. the beginning seems to suck, but it will get better as we go along so ride (with) me. ngyeheh. i feel much better now, thanks. Thursday, January 11, 2007
New things
11:11 PM I have 2 new things in my life :- 1) Marie the Viao. 2)Gerard Freddy Baker the Gee. Of which both, i am happy with. Waiting to start living. I swear i am still merajok with myself. Life is suck! (In the words of Nitin). I feel random, and u know what? i shall just pen down my thoughts.. Gee looks like Hans, somehow. I love the way he talks..the way he tells his stories..the stories he share, and how easily he makes me laugh..and i love the fact that i can't stop smiling whenever i am with him.. and i still can't decifer that he's bloody 28! It's too early to tell, where we're going. im not hoping for any outcome cos giirrrrrrl i am so bloody tired of commitment. but it IS nice to have company. especially is he's cute and funny. I don't know where freddy baker is taking me, but i do know that he's booked my ticket flight to bangkok with him. I'M GOING BANGKOK, BALLS!!!! seperate beds some more. and you know what, after whatever happened at the tower, i hope he doesn't feel to awkward about it. he shouldnt feel too hard on himself. Well, it was the calling. I am the first of his sort...hmm. what to do, things happen my friend. we couldnt stop it from happening. but oh wow was it amazing. haha. i can't wait for many more weeks with you, baby. it feels good to be with you, in your protective bubble, where i know you'll never leave me alone. times to come, i hope they'll be great. don't hope! they WILL be great!! ## Do not regret. If it wasn't an art of affection, let's just hope, between me and you, there will be.... ....affection. Monday, January 08, 2007
life?
12:24 AM For the meantime, i am living. But i swear i have no life. And till i get one, i shall not blog. Merajok with myself. But looking at the way things are, my life is about to change... ....will be back. Tuesday, January 02, 2007
red red wine
10:51 PM Something for everyone, for the new year. (Stumbled upon it on Mul's blog. => ) 1.To My Friends Who Are SINGLE Love is like a butterfly. The more you chase it, the more it eludes you. But if you just let it fly, it will come to you when you least expect it. Love can make you happy but often it hurts, but love's only special when you give it to someone who is really worth it. So take your time and choose the best. (Imran, Diy, Wany,Safrina,Mul...blah blah blah) 2. To My Friends Who Are NOT SINGLE Love isn't about becoming someone else's 'perfect person'. It's about finding someone who helps you become the best person you can be. (Souher,Atikah,hmm...who else eh? Nad? Rina? Ayul..) 3. To My Friends Who Are the PLAYBOY/GIRL TYPE Never say "I love you" if you don't care. Never talk about feelings if they aren't there. Never touch a life if you mean to break a heart. Never look in the eye when all you do is lie. The cruelest thing a guy can do to a girl is to let her fall in love when he doesn't intend to catch her fall... (HEHEHE MY FAVOURITE. For Pundek,specially for you k fucker. thanks) 4. To My Friends Who Are MARRIED Love is not about "it's your fault", but "I'm sorry". Not "where are you", but "I'm right here". Not "how could you", but "I understand". Not "I wish you were", but "I'm thankful you are". (Nadia and Ed!!!....erm,who else eh?) 5. To My Friends Who Are ENGAGED The true measure of compatibility is not the years spent together but how good you are to each other. (My Nycer and Harry aka EDMUND....) 6. To My Friends Who Are HEARTBROKEN Heartbreaks last for as long as you want and cut as deep as you allow them to go. The challenge is not how to survive heartbreaks but to learn from them. (erm, maybe myself..izwan..and er yeah.) 7. To My Friends Who Are NAIVE How to be in love; Fall but don't stumble, be consistent but not persistent, share and never be unfair, understand and try not to demand, and get hurt but never keep the pain. (hahaha!! who eh..i can't think of anyone right now. oh! i know! DiyanaMok. riiite.) 8. To My Friends Who Are POSSESSIVE It breaks your heart to see the one you love happy with someone else but it's more painful to know that the one you love is unhappy with you. (Afez and Safwah....Leandra and Syad... what?) 9. To My Friends Who Are AFRAID TO CONFESS Love hurts when you break up with someone. It hurts even more when someone breaks up with you. But love hurts the most when the person you love has no idea how you feel. (This is for Diy, a person who has problems expressing herself.) 10. To My Friends Who Are Still HOLDING ON A sad thing about life is when you meet someone and fall in love, only to find out in the end that it was never meant to be and that you have wasted years on someone who wasn't worth it. If he isn't worth it now she's not going to be worth it in another 10 years. Let go. (hmm...for Najib maybe? or...erm...dunno who else.) 11. To All MY FRIENDS... My wish for you is to find a man/woman whose love is honest, strong, mature, never-changing, uplifting, protective, encouraging, rewarding and unselfish. YOU KNOW I LOVE YOU! hell yeah!!!! Monday, January 01, 2007
happy new year!
1:45 AM HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!! Will update more soon, too many photos to upload. Too much partying for awhile. Anyhooa.. Happy new year ya'll. Mucho love. |
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