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Wednesday, January 23, 2008
for you,dibo
8:00 AM This is for a friend. Remember that early morning car ride prior to your confinement? That moment in the car when it was just you,me,the early morning and the road. That morning when we felt youth at it's pinnacle. How i explained that the silence i rendered at that moment was because i was feeling like a kite who's embracing the strong winds. Without even figuring out what or how the wind was, i was left contented. "I feel like a kite, embracing very strong winds now." And you agreed, knowing that this is what it all meant - the silence. How we agreed to screw growing up for awhile and just savor its liberty. Friend, only now i've discovered that the 'strong winds' i acknowledged back then was actually the winds of change. And how amusing it is for me, that not knowing it was the winds of change, i somehow accepted it knowing it's all good. Believing that what i couldn't decipher back then was alright because one day the logic of it all is just gonna fall nicely into place. And i guess that's just basic human nature. How faith makes us believe that every contigency is for the good of all things. --- You know, the reason why i often feel refreshed and rejuvenated and "re-" everything else after having a soulful conversation with you is because often at times i feel like as if i am speaking to my most innerself when i speak to you. An innerself with a different voice, coming from a different walk of life, with a different way of putting things, but with the most similar emotion. I'm compelled towards your being because somehow deep down inside i see a mirror image of my thoughts. Of my mind and philosophy. How 2 totally different people, can come onto the same plane. How sometimes i feel that when we speak, you and i represent a minority of mankind that is so unique yet undiscovered. I miss talking to you sometimes especially with your current commitment because somehow i feel like i miss talking to myself. Like how your train of thoughts and mine complement one another and not ever having to clash.Sometimes when your thoughts are a blur and can't be mouthed, i understand. How you need not say a word or neither do i, but we got our points across pretty well. With you, i discovered so many things about myself, about yourself, and about mankind as a whole. With you, ridiculous-sounding metaphors are actually made sensible. With you, i understand the silence. Whatever goes through your head, goes through mine. Most importantly, with you, i learn that we can reach to the depths of our souls without being in love, but just being in love with ourselves, our own existence. With you the world seems small and life seems short. But having said that, it's all worthwhile. How scare each other with the magnitude of our sins yet it is so comforting knowing that it's you who scared the jesus out of me. In your absence i've learnt new things,discovered new logic that i know only you can decipher. I have so much else to share with you now. I know that whatever i have to say or share will not be judged. I don't know how else to say it ; it's just been so phenominal. I don't even want to ask what is this that we've found in each other because it's a notion without an adjective - it's undescribable. All i know is that it'll stay with me through my life and has been a great part of my thinking mind for now. Thank you for being a part of my life. |
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