good things when short are twice as good.

So life has come to this aye? Super lonely nights. Super dull, solo nights. No tender lovin', no bright days..only dark nights.

Wishing the night would bring about a better next day..and when it doesn't im wishing for the night to fulfill me..only to be lonely again.

Things that used to leave me contented, doesn't even come close anymore.

I'm not even wondering why its come to this ; i'm constantly trying to remember my life before Nash came.

I don't cry, i'm don't get too hurt anymore - which isn't a good thing - my gash, my wounds, they're just so dry...i can't feel no more. I feel so numb.

Yes that's it..i feel numb. I can't differentiate my feelings anymore..the positive to the negative..

I've lost all connection to the people around me. Even my closest ones..lost the touch..the connection.

So how the hell am i supposed to bring myself joy, when i feel so..broken and lonely?

Is this part of growing up? Then why the fuck is Nash even in the picture? Is this the aftermath of all the pinning down and emotional punches he throws at me EVERY SINGLE DAY?

I put myself in the rut time and time again with him, for what? to hope that one FINE day, he'll suddenly or slowly become the Nash that i knew him to be on that one saturday night? i am deluded to have been thinking that way.

If he wants me, he'd have to respect me. If he feels for me, he's got to show it. I am utterly damaged..damaged beyond repair. At age 20. It kills.

I know i have so much to give to the love of my life..i'd be giving my life. So he better be worth it.
For now, Nash needs to go. I'm leaving..for good.

I will never love again.

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